The old normal wasn’t normal…

Life

Hearing that more businesses within the service industry are being given the green light to reopen elates me but also gives me pause. I’m glad that more folks can get back to work but also concerned about the risk they are being put at. If you’ve worked in the retail or service industry in America then you know that calling in sick for work is frowned upon. I’ve work(ed) for three major retailers and while I rarely called in sick or missed shifts, I know firsthand what it feels like to get guilt-tripped into going in for a shift while sick. It’s scary how normal this is, I waited tables for a restaurant in Minneapolis whose policy was if you didn’t have a fever or diarrhea then you should be at work. This culture runs deep within the service industry and I think we can all agree that this is not acceptable any longer (nor was it ever).

Unfortunately, for those of us who grew up working service jobs, this mentality stuck with us. At my former corporate office job, we wouldn’t take sick days but would work from home instead. It’s not unusual for people to be in the office coughing and sniffling at work during flu season, even at my current workplace. It’s bizarre to me that staying home when you aren’t feeling well has to be so stressed, this is what we should have all been doing in the first place. Employers should be required to offer sick time to all employees from their first date of employment. It took me 3-years to start accruing PTO while working for JCPenney and I think I started at .89 hours. That means it would have taken me 16 weeks to accrue ONE paid day off. One. After 3-years, I could request a day off while working for a huge corporation. Funny thing is, I graduated college shortly thereafter having never taken a day off and they had to cut me a check for 2 hours of PTO when I left that job 😀 Now, the obvious argument is that if you want a better benefits package then you should get a better job. I think that all of the people who live by that mantra have figured out how much they depend on these ‘low-skill’ workers and I hope that their mindset has changed.

I am thankful that I have a good job now with better than average paid time off and an awesome boss who would never make me feel guilty for being gone. Even now though, over 10 years into my career, I still feel guilty about taking a sick day. I often check my email and voicemail even if I am at home sick even though there isn’t any pressure from my boss to do so.

As someone who is trying to be a more conscientious consumer, it’s past time to start holding companies accountable for how they treat their employees. Minimum wage workers are an integral part of the huge profits these corporations make each year & should be treated as such. If a company can’t afford to pay their employees reasonable benefits then they should cease to exist (looking at you JCPenney). I’ve been watching very closely what corporations have been doing to safeguard their employees well-being through all of this and there are some that I will definitely not be giving my hard earned cash to any longer. I think it’s the least I can do to support those who are expected to do so much for so little 🤍

Damned if you do, double damned if you don’t

Life

Much to my surprise I found myself at the grocery store this weekend. Prior to this whole pandemic, I rarely went into grocery stores and almost totally depended on grocery pick-up because I just hate grocery shopping. Actually, I used to only do Coborn’s delivery but they stopped delivering to my area about a year ago so I switched to pick-up. Unfortunately, now that so many other consumers are also using pick-up, it’s become a complete nightmare. There’s a three-day wait time at Wal-Mart and Target in my area with some of the smaller chains experiencing even longer delays. I get it, their volume exploded and they are just trying to make it happen. I’ve been shopping for enough food to last me 3-weeks or longer if needed just in anticipation of this. I rolled up to get my order like you do on Saturday, there were 4 other cars waiting and two associates were talking to one guest. It seemed like there was some confusion as she was picking up multiple orders for Door Dash which wasn’t a good sign. I waited probably 20 minutes or so, not unusual, for an associate to come to my car. During that wait time, I received an email thanking me for picking up my order. Uh-oh. When the associate came to my window they said that my order had already been picked up, I explained that I had just arrived and hadn’t picked up my order. They went back inside to double check that my stuff wasn’t sitting somewhere and the notification had just been sent by mistake. No such luck, another associate came out and reiterated that my order had been picked up. I explained that I hadn’t picked up my order. To which her response was, well it’s been picked up. No apology, no explanation of what I was supposed to do now just – your order was picked up. My order in total was right under $300 and she wasn’t providing any explanation of how this happened, what I was supposed to do, etc. I ended up just calling the customer service number and was issued a refund that I should see in 5-7 days.

The whole thing just got me thinking though, it wasn’t a huge deal for me financially as I was able to just go into the store and purchase what I needed (what was in stock, that is) but what if I didn’t have the ability to do that? What if I had just spent all of my money on food and would have to wait for the refund? What if I was out of food? What if I had kids at home? It really irked me, maybe if I had made a fuss then I would have at least been given an apology but maybe not. From now on, I will be going into the store and doing my own shopping. I’ve been trying to avoid doing so but don’t really see another option given what happened this weekend. Maybe I won’t always have the money in my account to cover SIX WEEKS of grocery shopping since I was effectively out that amount of money. Which brings me to my next gripe, people not wearing face masks in public.

Why is this so hard, America? You couldn’t stay home when told and now that we are being allowed to get out more, you can’t just cover your fucking face? JUST DO IT. Nobody likes wearing them, they make your face sweat, rub on your ears and make it harder to breath but this is not an infringement on anyone’s civil liberties and I am tired of hearing that it is. If the government suddenly mandated that everyone wiped their ass would people just stop doing it?! That’s how stupid these people sound to me. Also, if you aren’t going to wear one then you don’t get to heckle people who are or harass store associates who tell you to wear one or walk around being a general asshole. This mentality of thinking it’s OK to infringe on someone else’s freedom as long as they don’t infringe on yours is such hypocritical bullshit and I’m sick of it.

Honestly, what a shit weekend and I am glad that it’s over even if that means today is Monday 😛 Hope you are just doing the best you can wherever you are 🖤

Saturday Vibes: Feeling Completely Unmotivated

Life, Random

It’s Saturday, it’s a beautiful sunny day & I’m completely unmotivated to do anything. I’ve cleaned everything, I’ve organized everything, I think my neighbors below me will make a complaint if I vacuum one more time. I skipped my bed time skincare routine last night (accidentally) & decided to just do it this morning and lay around all day. Then I got bored and decided to clean something, I already cleared out and organized my bathroom drawers but my makeup bag has become a bit of a monster:

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Clearly, a remedy to this issue would have been to buy a smaller bag but I have wanted this bag for ages, I just couldn’t drop $21 on it. I spotted this neon beauty at the drugstore around Christmas, it was on clearance for $12 and was packed with a bunch of Soap & Glory products. I gifted the products to a friend and kept this giant, gloriously neon bag for myself. It needs a good clean out though, here’s a peek at everything as well as what is staying or going.

{Avocado Creamy}

{Avocado Creamy}

Charlotte Tilbury Pressed Powder: I have to use this one up but that’s the only reason that it gets to stay in the bag. I don’t like it, it doesn’t set my makeup and makes my skin look dry.

Charlotte Tilbury Magic Away Concealer: Out, I can’t use these. I think they are only meant to be worn underneath the eye but the formula irritates my eyes, plus they are really old and the sponge tip applicator stinks.

MAC Soft & Gentle: This is a keeper, I’ve almost panned it anyway. I love the mineralized skin finish powders, they make the skin look so juicy and radiant but they’re powders. It’s witchcraft.

shape tape: Still my favorite concealer, even with dry skin I find that these give me the best coverage.

MISSHA BB Cream: Love this, it’s the only ‘foundation’ that I reach for during the summer. It packs a pretty good amount of coverage for a BB cream, it’s packed with SPF and blends seamlessly.

Bare Minerals foundation stick: These will stay, I have to use them up & only one of them has been opened. I purchased a ton of bare minerals foundation when it was on sale earlier this year. I paid around $10 for each of these after my discount. I like this foundation but the color isn’t a great match for me.

Honest Beauty Powder & Primer: Out, I purchased these as ULTA right before they closed and I don’t like either product. The powder is too yellow and drying, it also has a weird scent to it. The primer looks and works fine but it breaks me out.

Maybelline FitMe Loose Powder: Out, this used to be a long time fave but I find it to be too drying as of late.

MAC Powder Foundation: I should really use this up, unfortunately I bought this online and it pulls too yellow for me but it’s a great product otherwise.

TooFaced Concealer: This product did me dirty, I like the coverage and the formula but it’s so yellow! I didn’t notice until I was on a Zoom call & was shocked to see what a poor match it was. These are really old anyway so I’m tossing them out.

Coty Airspun: Out for now but it’s a good powder, I never bake with it, I take a blending eyeshadow brush and press it into areas where my foundation settles in fine lines. I wear lighter foundation in the warmer seasons and don’t have an issue with fine lines so I want be taking this extra step.

Bare Minerals BarePro Foundation: Again, I have multiples of this because it was on sale. It’s out for now but will go back to using it in the fall/winter. This is the .5 shade which is a much better match for me, the stick doesn’t come in this shade but I hope they release it soon.

{Avocado Creamy}

{Avocado Creamy}

Flower Beauty Blush Bomb: In, these are awesome.

Charlotte Tilbury Glowgasm: Out but mostly because it dried up, it’s a good product but there are other liquid blushes that I would recommend first for much cheaper.

Burt’s Bees Blush: I think this is Toasted Cinnamon, I plan to use this one up. The formula is not very long wearing but the color is really nice.

Bare Minerals Highlighter: In, definitely one of my most used products as of late.

Benefit Boxes o’ Blushes: These are all in, they are my summer cocktail for faux sun-kissed skin.

{Avocado Creamy}

{Avocado Creamy}

Colourpop Mascara: Out, it’s brown and just does nothing for my lashes.

Buxom: Out, it’s expired and has been irritating my eyes. I used to love this one but it’s not as good as I recall…

Smashbox Primer: In but would not repurchase, it has a spiky brush that I always manage to stab myself in the eyes with it. I like how it primes and conditions my lashes but the brush is torture.

Smashbox Super Fan: Out, it’s dried up and again with that spiky brush. It’s a fine mascara, nothing to rave about.

Lashtopia: This is my favorite right now, it’s volumizing and lengthening plus it conditions the lashes really well. I have about 4 back ups of this one, again they were on sale earlier this year.

{Avocado Creamy}

{Avocado Creamy}

UD Primer Potion: In, this is the only eye primer that I plan to use. I think it does what an eye primer should, why do there need to be more?

Charlotte Tilbury Eyeliner: This is out, expired but it was a good eyeliner. I’ve stopped wearing eyeliner for the most part, I’ve switched it up to just darkening the lash line with powder.

ABH Eye Primer: This is too wet and has as much coverage as a concealer. I received this sample with a purchase from Beautylish, I didn’t love it.

Colourpop Coco-nuts Palette: Honestly the only eyeshadow that I’ve been using & only two shades out of the whole palette at that 😛 It’s an awesome, everyday neutral palette.

{Avocado Creamy}

tatcha Serum Stick: In, I use this under my eyes and around my mouth as part of my AM skincare routine. It adds just a bit of hydration in areas that dry out over the day.

Mamonde Lip Mask: In, I use this in the same way as the serum stick if my face is feeling especially dry. It’s also nice to put a little on after washing my face in the evening if I’m not doing my nighttime routine right away.

That’s everything that was in the bag! It looks much better now and I can store it under the sink as I had intended to when I first purchased it. What’s your makeup bag like? Do you do a little bag or giant one? Have you just about cleaned & organized everything in your life as I have 😉 I hope that you are having a beautiful day 🤍

Friday Thoughts…

Life

Fair warning, I will mostly be complaining in this post so if you are feeling down or particularly joyful – maybe skip this one 🙂

Buttey Honey Regular

Not that I loved working for the weekend but Friday doesn’t feel like Friday anymore. Working from home makes almost everyday feel like Friday because pre-Corona, that would have been a Friday luxury. Since every day feels like Friday, the next day always feels like Monday. I’m in this weird Friday/Monday time warp where it’s Monday morning then Friday evening every monkey flying day. It’s exhausting.

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Buttey Honey Regular

Unprecedented, novel, uncertain, tumultuous, new normal – these phrases and numerous others must be stricken from the lexicon. We get it, many of us have never experienced something like this in our lifetime, we don’t need a reminder. Also, new normal? Do we remember what the old normal was like? Aside from the pandemic, the world was pretty much a shambles. I mean, at least a plus side to the pandemic is that it’s so traumatic that it’s taking our minds off of the current events that were were current events pre-corona. I’m going to stop saying pre-corona now 😉

Buttey Honey Regular

My place of work has started very preliminary discussions around what going back to work will look like, mostly because our shelter in place order expires on May 4 & the assumption is that some restrictions will be lifted. Plexiglass shields and temperature checkpoints are some of the precautions being discussed. All I can say is that I hope that the antibody testing becomes widely accessible because I think I already had corona.

Buttey Honey Regular

In mid-December I became extremely sick with a respiratory illness that I ended up being sent to the ER for (I needed additional testing, not admitted or anything). They didn’t know what I had, I was sent home with steroids, an inhaler, an antibiotic and saw a respiratory therapist for a month for nebulizer treatments. I was sick for weeks & had complications with lung inflammation for even longer. I have pleurisy in my right lung that causes pain when I’m running or working out still. It was chalked up to a case of pneumonia but now I’m wondering, if corona has been in the US for longer than experts knew then some of us have likely already been sick. Better believe I am getting that antibody test as soon as I can. It would be nice to know so that I can start my MS treatment again which has been stalled since mid-March and indefinitely since the medication I take is immunosuppressive.

Buttey Honey Regular

I do believe that each day that we get through is another day closer to this new normal and that makes me feel a little less anxious. I still have a job, I’m starting my urban garden and Amazon donated 250,000 euro (is that what it’s called still) to a bookstore charity. Some days I feel like everything is going to be alright & other days I feel like nothing will ever be the same. Perhaps it won’t, being a natural introvert who loves being at home, even I have felt a yearning to take a trip or wander through a mall window shopping. I cannot imagine what people who do these things on the regular are feeling. As soon as the travel bans are lifted, I’m getting my passport renewed and I’m going somewhere. I mean, maybe just to Idaho but I’m going.

I hope that you are making it through the days, stay safe wherever you are 💛

Hello From the Inside

Life

Two months of zero posts, I was out living my life, hitting the gym, cooking meals, getting to bed on time and then BAM – mother nature intervened and I think I’m going to have a lot more time on my hands. So, welcome back to my blog 😉 I have been at home for the past week, coffee intake is at an all time high, productivity at an all time low – I blame my cats. But I cannot express how grateful I am that my job is still intact.

I have to say that I am pretty pissed off about this whole coronavirus thing, just when the weather is good enough to get outside, we are told to stay in. Now, I think parks and trails are fine if you are still social distancing but I’m not a doctor. Also though, I work in Parks & Rec and our parks our open but be sure to bring your own sanitary wipes. Gas prices could not be any lower but  who needs it to get anywhere since we’re all staying home? Actually, grocery stores outside of the metro are pretty well stocked and if people don’t stop panic buying everything in sight, I’m going to have to take a trip up north so good thing gas is cheap. Here’s what’s on my mind…

Wildest Grass

I’m lucky, I grocery shop on Wednesdays to just avoid crowds in general and I got my groceries well before things went nuts. That being said, when can I eat them exactly? Should I wait? Will there be more groceries in a couple of weeks when people settle into this new normal? Good thing I’m already fasting for Lent…Totally off topic but I saw a photo of the Pope walking the streets of Rome! Who let him outside?!

Wildest Grass

Here is something that I am struggling with, physical stores have been on the decline for the past decade in the US because of online shopping. Now we can’t seem to stay home? As a capricorn, I’m skeptical of everything but it really does make me wonder about the information we’re being fed – either everyone is out shopping or we aren’t…explain this to me. If everyone who could stay home would, that’d be great.

Wildest Grass

The social distancing strategy seems like a good idea but I would also like to volunteer to be infected so then I am immune and can go about my life knowing that I’m not putting anyone in danger. It’s hard to believe that we aren’t just prolonging the pandemic by not preemptively exposing the healthy population and getting them immune to protect the at risk. Is that totally nuts? It’s definitely going to get worse before it gets better, I think that’s to be expected but I wish we could speed it up.

I hope you’re doing well, hanging in there…let me know what you’ve been up to in the comments! If you want some light reading on pandemics throughout history, I found this one interesting and kinda comforting – the human race has survived some shit.

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Moody Monday & Bathroom Refresh

Life

I am not one of those people who dislikes Mondays but the Monday after the holidays is a terrible day. I don’t know about you but I tend to feel deflated after the merriment has commenced, the tree comes down and the world just looks a little duller. I took my tree down this weekend and even though I do leave out a few winter decorations, my apartment just looks so drab and sad. I recall seeing a comic strip when I was a kid, it was a tree thrown in the gutter to be picked up and had a forgotten ornament hanging from one of the branches – I am that tree today. Anyway, it’s weird how something like that sticks with you – I must have been 8’ish when I read that comic strip. My birthday was Friday, I skipped posting since I was out and about but will post a birthday haul once all of my goodies arrive. I did make a stop at IKEA to pick up some items for my bathroom that I had been going back and forth on. It feels complete at this point, I have been slowly collecting items for months now. At one point, I had a bright white hotel bathroom theme in mind but soon realized that hotel bathrooms are so bright and shiny because they get bleached all of the time. I kept some white elements but added in a dusty pink similar to what I have in my bedroom.

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These rugs are my favorite thing that I have ever purchased from IKEA. I’ve had them in grey in my other bathroom and those rugs are at least 6 years old but still look great even with weekly washings. The color hasn’t faded, the fabric hasn’t pilled or frayed and they are only about $9 each. The white curtain is from Target, I think but also I don’t remember because I picked up this past summer. I do recall being shocked at how much a freaking shower curtain costs. The pink and white towels were a clearance find at Bed, Bath & Beyond – they are a bit smaller than I prefer, I am more of a bath sheet person but they are nice and thick.

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I’m showcasing the fact that I now only have 6 of these plastic drawers full of makeup and not 18 that I had less than a year ago. Most of what was not expired, I was able to give away but I have pledged to reduce my collection by another 3 drawers by the end of this year.

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My vanity is pretty boring, just how I like it – the pink vase was an IKEA pick up from this past summer, the baskets were also Bed, bath & Beyond finds, the wax warmer is from Amazon and I purchased a second Echo device for my bathroom. Still loving the Echo, I can listen to the news or books while I am getting ready, it’s awesome. I don’t love apartment bathrooms because they always have a used feeling about them, this one isn’t too bad but the sink is stained and it drives me nuts. Also, the drain stopper popped off at some point in time, I cannot figure out how to get it back on but also don’t want to lose it so it just sits there 😀

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Another part of the reason that I ditched the white theme is because of this little dude. He is 8-weeks old and his name is Pluto, I had been sitting a cat for a few weeks and my cats were totally into it so I figured that they’d like a permanent playmate. Oddly, not the case but they are starting to warm up to him. Anyway, since he’s too small to be out with the big cats all of the time, he has to be in the bathroom during the day if I am not home.

Did you survive your Monday? Does anyone else feel like a gutter tree or sooty pile of snow 😛 Let me know how you get through the post-holiday funk & thanks for reading!

New Year, New…blah, blah, blah…

Life

New Year’s has never been my holiday, growing up with my mother, we were always expecting the world to end. To me, the year already starts off fantastic simply because the world didn’t end. When I started living on my own I planned on sleeping through the stroke of midnight so then I would at least miss the Apocalypse – or whatever the fuck the religious zealots always say is going to happen. Is it the Rapture? Don’t we want that? I always wondered how the end of the world worked with time zones. Is it when the first continent hits midnight? Does Death just pick at random? Wouldn’t it be a laugh if the world actually ends at like 1:42 AM or other seemingly insignificant, unassuming time? Exactly where will he be riding from, are there numerous entities? How can the entire world end all at once? Won’t some countries hear of the arrival of the end of the world and be able to prepare? Always things that I wondered as a child, it was a relief watching the NYE celebration in New York because I could relax knowing they were 3 hours ahead of us and hadn’t been smote so we were probably in the clear. It’s nuts right? Thanks, Christianity. Let’s not even get into the fact that time is a man made construct and only exists because we all adhere to it and say it does. So, like I said, not big into New’s Year 😀 I don’t make resolutions, if you want to make a change then do it whenever you feel like it! Also, the world could be ending so why wait for New Year’s?! I appreciate the concept of leaving things in the past year and have some things that can stay in 2019.

Smol Kitty Boi

I’m sure that most people can relate to this one, I will jump on Instagram to see what’s happening and spend hours on the explore page absorbing shit that isn’t enriching my life. I definitely want to be choosier with how I spend my time and stay up to date on current events without the unnecessary bullshit.

Smol Kitty Boi

I have been working since I was 16, I’m sick of it and I am sick of working all of the time. I was thinking just the other day that I wouldn’t be up at 5 AM if I didn’t need to be at work, my work day starts 3 hours before I’m even there. I wouldn’t use as much gas, I wouldn’t have to waste money on work specific clothes. And no, I am not compensated for these things with my salary – my salary is for what I do when I actually get to work. How is this not talked about more?

Smol Kitty Boi

Not much to say here, I don’t like being around a lot of people.

Smol Kitty Boi

They know who they are 😛

Smol Kitty Boi

I have been treating myself all over the place, this is the year that I hope to purchase a house and should be more conservative. We won’t talk about the David’s Tea order that I treated myself to for my birthday 😀

Do you make resolutions or set goals for the new year? Let me know if you did anything fun for the holiday! Oh, and Happy New Year 🙂

Target Dollar Spot Fall Finds

Blogoween, Life

Ah, the Target Dollar Spot, it’s definitely a love/hate thing for me. It’s a collection of things one absolutely does not need at prices that definitely don’t scream quality and yet, I always find something to purchase once the fall decor hits the shelves. I was all around impressed with the selection this time, everything was picked over last year by mid-September. I picked up a few things that I knew I could use for numerous occasions.

They had a couple different styles and shades of gourds this year. I think these little pieces are well worth a buck and can be used after Halloween for fall decor.

It seems that they always have fabric pumpkins, this year they had these little sequin beauties. The wire, spider web bowl was $3 and perfect for spooky centerpiece.

Lastly, I chose two of these black cat, wooden ornaments. They were $1 each and matched the black/gold theme I had inadvertently going.

It’s funny how quick you can run through $20 on this stuff 😂 Is your Target stocked for Halloween? I feel as though retailers stock seasonal items so early nowadays that it’s all picked over too soon! Let me know what goodies you’re on the hunt for.

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It’s the Little Things

Life

Ahhhh, I feel like I am becoming one of those pathetic people who just moan about everything. When really, I don’t have a lot to complain about in life, I’m a generally a content person honestly. I think this will be one of very few for instances that I mention this, I don’t want sympathy – I feel sorry enough for myself already (kidding) but I did want to share where I’ve been.

I mentioned in a few blogs back before my absence that I was being screened for MS, again because I’ve been having some issues. I had an MRI and full screening 10’ish years ago but MS was ruled out, this time around, I wasn’t so lucky. I’m disappointed but not surprised, there’s been too many little things adding up over time and I just had this sinking feeling. 10 years ago, I thought my doctor was nuts but this time I knew. MS is a disease that is seemingly different for everyone who has it or so I can tell. It’s a disease that impacts the central nervous system and disrupts the communication between your brain and muscles. For me it’s cloudy vision when I get tired, always being tired, holding a cup of coffee one minute and then dumping it all over myself the next, not being able to grip my steering wheel, crying when my tire pressure warning comes on because I know I can’t get those stupid little valve covers off by myself. It’s anger and resentment and what the fuck is karma because I feel like I am a pretty good person who just got served the biggest shit sandwich of her lifetime. It’s a lot of unknowns at this point, will it get worse or could this be the worst that my symptoms get? It’s knowing that I could do everything exactly right to treat it and still get fucked. For now, I am trying some acupuncture and am on a beta interferon which is supposed to reduce symptoms. I’m lucky in that I don’t have any pain, I experience numbness and weakness more than anything.

At this point, I am just going to keep on living my life and try not to cry over spilt milk (literally since I’m spilling everything at this point). I’m not going to start joining advocacy groups or running 5k’s to raise awareness, because I am selfish and a little vain and don’t really want people in my life to perceive me as being different. I’m not going to share much about it, I don’t think that would be helpful because for the last month I have been reading everything I can on the disease and not getting any answers. Like I said, it’s so different for each person, there’s just no way of knowing what to expect.

Two sad, whiny blogs to get back into blogging 😛 I plan to get back to some regularly scheduled content sooner than later.

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