What an odd week, I thought Wednesday was Monday which should have been a pleasant surprise when I was actually two days ahead but it pretty much set the tone for the rest of the week. Let’s get to the shit part, I missed Elton John – the fact that I had two tickets to a once in a lifetime show totally slipped my mind because I was helping someone else deal with life bullshit. I cannot express how sick and tired I am of putting someone else’s needs and wants before my own and getting burned. I feel like every friendship or relationship that I find myself in, I’m giving and giving and getting nothing. Is it really anyone’s fault? No, I should have written it down but one would think they’d remember that they had tickets to fucking Elton John. I’m still so bummed.
I started doing pilates on Monday, I’ve taken the same yoga class for years and was feeling a bit bored so I swapped my classes. I don’t know if I love it, the yoga class had a more chill vibe and the pilates group makes me feel a little old and off trend. I’ll give it a couple more weeks, I like that I am sore in new places, I think I was getting a little complacent with yoga.
I found a new favorite recipe that is super easy for week nights and makes a ton of food so that I can take it for lunch too. It’s just an enchilada type bake, I botched the first batch because I only had red quinoa on-hand and there’s definitely a distinct difference in flavor. I found it surprisingly hard to find a vegan enchilada sauce but ended up really loving the brand that I found. I’ve been reading a lot about intuitive eating, it’s all about rejecting diet culture and it’s supposed to be a good approach for dealing with eating disorders. Even though I don’t actively have an eating disorder, food is always on my mind and I find myself dieting or restricting my diet out of habit. This approach is all about eating when you’re hungry, eating what you want and stopping when you’re full – which seems so simple but also feels like I am relinquishing control.
We have so much snow! I love snow, everyone seems to be a bit done with it and even I am going to punch the next person who tells me that March is the snowiest month right in the face but it really is lovely. A co-worker got to yakking about Arizona being the best place to live and I was reminded of how much I love the southwest and got a little home sick. I love Minnesota winters and loathe the summers here, I prefer a dry heat – is there a perfect climate, honestly.
Now I am going to take a 27-hour nap, listen to some Agatha Christie and not leave my apartment until Monday 😛 What’s new in your world?