Friday Thoughts: Eugenia Cooney Has Got To Go

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If you are someone who is sensitive to discussions of eating disorders or a fan of Eugenia Cooney, this one isn’t for you. Happy New Year, blah, blah, blah – 2021 is shaping up to be just as weird as 2020. Yay πŸ˜‰ Anyway, a couple of nights ago I am rolling through YouTube trying to find something to watch, I don’t subscribe to a ton of channels & will find myself down the odd rabbit hole on occasion. My recommended videos are a variety of everything & nothing since I will watch anything excluding diet, weight loss, exercise channels, etc. because as someone who manages an eating disorder, this content can be tricky to ingest. Now & again, the YouTube algorithm will throw me the odd health channel probably because I watch a lot of lifestyle channels & it’s fine but I found myself absolutely disgusted when Eugenia’s most recent video popped up in my feed.

I don’t watch her, I did watch the Shane Dawson video, just never her specifically but she has been a name within the community for a long time. Unfortunately, her images are often used as inspiration or encouragement for people looking to fuel their disorders. It’s like – if she can be that skinny & not dead then I can too. She is stupid & blind to her disorder at best, dangerous & fully in control of what she is doing at worst. I personally believe that it’s the latter, she full well knows that her content is pro-ana, thinspo & fodder for perverts or the morbidly curious. By allowing her to have a monetized channel, YouTube is allowing her more accessibility to people of all ages & basically paying her to kill herself. What is even more twisted is that to my knowledge, she has never admitted that she has a problem which is incredibly misleading to her following, young people especially. Not only can she not admit that she has a problem, she probably never shares the graphic details of what her disorder is doing to her body. Instead, she presents herself as this cutesy, terminally delightful, childlike being who just wants to live her life. That’s fine, that’s complete bullshit but it’s fine – take it offline then & stop monetizing your mental illness.

Is she providing tips or commentary on how she maintains her outrageously low body weight? No, probably not but she is presenting this everything is fine faΓ§ade that is dangerous. She is showcasing her illness, this glamorizes it & could encourage others to try & do the same. To me, it’s no different than watching your favorite beauty guru & wanting to become really good at makeup application so that you can be the next big guru. Since she won’t be honest about what’s actually going on, I can provide some insight into the physical toll that a long term eating disorder can take on a body – the shit they don’t tell you in school.

I was actively bulimic from 17 to 26 years old, I say actively because it’s something that I manage each day & choose not to engage in. I was never a binge & purge person, I would eat a regular meal & then expel it. I have occasional slip ups, going vegan has definitely been tricky because it puts a lot of emphasis on food & this can feel unhealthily obsessive but hasn’t caused any major issues. Eugenia is 26 now, when I finally started treatment at the same age, it was only after being fitted for a partial denture because many of my back teeth were falling out or so severely decayed that they had to be pulled. I didn’t care that I was freakishly thin, I liked the way that I looked, for some reason the denture thing really triggered me & finding out that my dentist was a recovering anorexic that encouraged me to take the next step. Thankfully now, I have been able to replace my teeth with individual dental implants on posts which was as an extremely painful (and expensive) procedure. Forcing yourself to throw up consistently also causes bizarre issues with the throat muscles & can lead to years of involuntary puking. I am 34 now, I cannot brush my teeth without throwing up or dry heaving. It’s embarrassing, not as embarrassing as some of the instances that occurred earlier in my recovery but it still sucks. Chronic acid reflux & bouts of IBS are other digestive issues that I experience on the regular. I have arthritis in my back, ribs & deteriorated bone density in one hip that could necessitate a hip replacement by age 40. The thing is, you can recover from an eating disorder but you’ll never be quite the same. It isn’t a game, it’s not just simply wanting to be thin & then being able to go back to a normal existence once you’ve attained your goal. There really isn’t a goal aside from wanting to be thinner & wanting others to notice that you are thinner. I’m not even considered an extreme case, long term but not extreme & this shit has plagued me for decades. It will always have an impact on my day to day life & seeing some little brat on the internet glamorizing a deadly lifestyle is infuriating.

There is no shame in admitting that you have an eating disorder even if you aren’t ready to deal with it. At the least, she could admit her issue & be honest that she doesn’t feel the need to seek treatment but be honest about it. Tell young viewers that it’s a shitty existence that makes you feel like shit all of the time. Tell them that your bones ache, that you can’t sleep, that it doesn’t truly make you happy. Tell them that it’s an existence that you wouldn’t wish on anyone. Let them know the risks; heart failure, organ failure, mood swings, chronic headaches, blindness, seizures, death – just to name a few. Eugenia Cooney is not living, she is dying. If she can’t admit this & censor her content then YouTube & other platforms need to step in & do it for her, I’m still so disgusted that I’m considering boycotting YouTube altogether. Parents can only do so much to protect their kids online & sometimes, thinspo content isn’t easily spotted, it can seem like a harmless inspirational quote if you aren’t wise to the community.

I don’t pity her, just like I don’t pity myself – eating disorders are mental health disorders but it’s something we can choose to deal with. I would encourage anyone struggling with an eating disorder to at least stop & really consider what’s going on, even if you aren’t ready to seek treatment – just stop & think for a moment. Consider a life that isn’t consumed by an eating disorder. It’s a much more beautiful existence. Sure, I am a bit fat now & feel about 80 years old sometimes but overall am much healthier & happier for seeking treatment. I hope that you are happy, healthy & just doing the best that you can ❀

On The 24th Day of Blogmas: Merry Christmas Eve πŸŽ…

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Merry Christmas Eve, I hope this blog finds you well & safe at home. The recent weather event always reminds me how lucky I am to have a warm home & roof over my head. The temperatures have plummeted & there’s nowhere I’d rather be than on my couch, watching holiday specials. This time of year tends to make me a little melancholy, when the lights come down, the tinsel is packed away & the tree at the curbside – the world looks a little sad. I leave my decor up through my birthday but the holiday feeling markedly dissipates after Christmas.

Anyway, I have two hours until mass & am watching my favorite holiday specials which of course begins with A Charlie Brown Christmas (1965) an all around classic. A jaded Charlie Brown is on a mission to discover the true meaning of Christmas which he feels has been hijacked by consumerism.

Next, A Garfield Christmas Special (1987) with Garfield & Odie headed to the Arbuckle family farm for a good ol’ fashioned Christmas. I love Garfield, the old cartoons especially for the dry humor. This one is very sweet & endearing, another true meaning of Christmas trope but I still enjoy it.

It wouldn’t be Christmas Eve without watching a bitter Grinch breaking & entering then committing grand larceny πŸ˜‚ Honestly though, when one stops to really consider the plot of How the Grinch Stole Christmas (1966) it is a bit nutty. How were the Whos just so chill when the Grinch admitted to robbing them?!

Occasionally, I will watch the old clay animation specials that we watched as kids but those make me a little sad too. It’s such an odd time of year, while it’s wonderful to reminisce, it always makes me blue. Also, I cannot do another Zoom anything. I was telling my sister that I’m not sad about being alone on Christmas because I’m a homebody but it’s hard for me to see the strain & sadness in other people’s faces. We’re unwrapping a few gifts tomorrow via Zoom but I’m Zoomed out.

I hope that you’re happy, healthy & just doing the best you can. Merry Christmas Eve ❄

On The 22nd Day of Blogmas: A Holiday Would You Rather

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I did this one last year & it was a lot of so I figured that I would revisit the questions this year!

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A grandparent which, I will never be but I enjoy shopping for kids and checking out all of the new toys..

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Elf ears, no question because though I like the look of beards, I’m sure that they are a pain to upkeep. Also, talk about an instant Halloween costume accessory each year.

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Useful, I received a cold weather kit a few years ago and I still have it in my trunk and have used it many times. It has everything you need for a Minnesota winter; jump pack, cat litter, emergency blanket, water – it’s awesome.

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How about neither? 2100 is going to be Water World and everything probably smelled rancid in 1700 but at least global warming wasn’t a thing and human population growth wasn’t out of control. Fine, 1700, I guess…

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I think it depends, both are equally important. I would have to consider what would be more beneficial to the recipient.

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The White House, just once. It’s one of few historical places in the US and I think it would be cool to see outside of a public tour.

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I have done both and equally enjoyed both, honestly. It can be nice to stay home and not worry about bad weather or traffic but it’s also nice to go somewhere and not have to be the one who cooks, cleans and organizes everything.

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None at all, I’m not crazy about parties in general but holiday parties are especially exhausting. Often times, it’s a bunch of people who might only see each other 1-2 times a year and there’s this obligation to care about what everyone has been up to. The question is, does anyone really care!? If we did, wouldn’t we hang out more? I much prefer holiday parties with close friends who I see often but could skip those too πŸ˜›

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Snow! What is Christmas without snow? Although, if it could stop raining before it snowed, that would be great. Thank you, global warming.

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I’ve never tried a fruitcake, that I can recall but I am assuming that it really is as bad as everyone claims and will just skip dessert altogether.

Thanks for reading, I hope that you are having a wonderful holiday week ❄

On The 10th Day of Blogmas: The Blizzard of ’97

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I am clearly having snow withdrawals because I have been watching documentaries about the Blizzard of ’49 on Colorado & Wyoming PBS. Listen, I am not asking for a Christmas blizzard but a little snow would be nice. It got me thinking about the Blizzard of ’97 & how even with all of our modern conveniences, we are still fragile in the hands of mother nature.

If you are a Minnesotan or ever lived here, I am sure that you have been regaled with tales of the Halloween Blizzard of ’91. There was a foot on the ground before the kids were back from trick or treating πŸ™‚ There have been heavy snowfalls since I have lived here, nothing that really shut the city down but I am still waiting. Anyway, us Coloradoans have our very own tales of an October Blizzard & it was pretty epic as I recall. I grew up in the San Juan River Valley, we didn’t have mild winters – the chains went on in October & didn’t come off until April. I was in 3rd grade, we went to school in town which was 45-minutes to an hour down the mountain. There were a dozen or so of us that were called ‘the mountain kids’ because we were designated our own bus since the route was so long. Occasionally, the mountain kids would be sent home early because of winter weather but this particular day, we knew it was a bigger deal because we were loaded up before lunch. I also remember the bus driver looking stressed & no wonder, not only did she have to get us home before the roads became impassible, she had to get back down the mountain to her own home safely. I don’t know how she drove that route all of those years, she was at least 70 for my entire childhood πŸ˜›

The atmosphere before a big snow has a a feel about it. The air literally feels heavy & dense, I remember being scooted onto the bus & inching closer & closer to these huge snow clouds as we headed up the mountain. It felt like we were being squished between the dense air below us & those huge clouds above us. About halfway into the journey, we ran into a wall of snow that had been falling in earnest already & only got heavier as we gained altitude. As kids I don’t think we fully appreciated that we were travelling through white out conditions along a twisty, turny mountain road but we were feeling tense nonetheless.

With each kid that was deposited safely in front of their home, a blast of frigid wind & snow entered the bus. We were all sitting in the middle of the bus nearest to the heat blowers but that icy chill was far reaching. There were two times that we had to pull off so that the driver could bang the ice off of the wipers but the ride was mostly uneventful. In my kid mind, it took us 5 hours to get up the mountain because it was dark out but really, it was about 2 in the afternoon by the time we got home & the sun was just obliterated by the storm system. We were the last stop on the route but we made it. Our farm was down a long dirt road & over a rickety bridge that crossed Stoner Creek (which is river size not creek size) that the bus couldn’t actually drive on but my dad was waiting at the opening of said bridge with the toboggan to pull me home. We watched as the bus driver backed across the road & started her journey back to town.

I had a bloody nose by the time we got home, I get them when I am stressed out but was fine outside of that. The blizzard raged for at least three days but I don’t recall sleeping very much. There’s a lot of things that need to happen on a farm & it’s all thrown into hyper-drive when bad weather is an added factor. The animals have to be accounted for, they have to be kept warm but putting heat sources in a barn is tricky because it eats the oxygen up & you can burn it down. Not all of the animals fit in the barn either, so they have to be contained as close as you can get them so they don’t freeze. We had to bring the ducks inside & house them in the bathroom which was the highlight of the blizzard for me. My dad headed out a few times in the tractor to help others dig out all while the snow was still dumping. At one point, the phone lines did go down but we never lost electricity which was a small wonder considering the weight of the snow on the power lines.

When it finally stopped snowing, the amount of snow was breathtaking. My dad spent hours clearing snow, helping neighbors clear snow – we lived on a county road so often had to clear the main road well before the plows arrived. At some points, there was nowhere for the snow to go & the roadways were very narrow with huge snow mounds on each side. I don’t remember how long we were out of school but I want to say it was at least a week.

When I have travelled home in my adulthood, it never ceases to amaze me remembering how isolated those few mountain farms were. To this day, there is one treacherous, narrow road in – you had to be resourceful in an emergency because outside help is scarce. We never had any major emergencies but a number of things could have gone wrong during that blizzard. The worst that happened on our farm was after the blizzard when I was in charge of returning the ducks to their pond, I slipped & fell in some goose shit & this pack of geese descended on me. We had this weird flock of geese that stayed pretty much year round, they were mean.

Have you experienced any memorable weather events in your lifetime, let me know! I hope you enjoyed, thanks for stopping by ❄

On The 6th Day of Blogmas: My Favorite Vlogmas

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Confession, I’m a vlog junkie. I love watching people just living their lives. Oh, you’re detailing your car for two hours? Fascinating. Vloggers bring me back to a more wholesome time on YouTube when it was normal people broadcasting themselves. Now YouTube seems so hyper-stylized & plagued with drama. Many of my favorite vloggers have stopped vlogging or left the platform altogether. For those who still post YouTube content, few continue to post Vlogmas which is just a bummer. Luckily for me, my favorite content creators who still post Vlogmas definitely do it the best!

Jessica Braun & Family – I’ve been watching Jessica for a long time & just adore her little family. They live in Indiana & their content is delightfully Midwestern. She posts a little bit of everything; lifestyle, grocery hauls, recipes, beauty, travel & it’s all genuinely relatable. She & her husband (Tyler) are so goofy & wholesome. I also appreciate how they include their daughter in their vlogs without over sharing. Kids on YouTube & family vlog channels mostly just weird me out. The Braun family vlogmas highlight decorating, cooking, baking & loads of other wholesome content.

Fleur De Force & Family – Fleur is another one I’ve been watching for a very long & she is the coolest. Her style, her taste in home decor – she’s a total class act. Her family lives in the English countryside in what appears to be an old manor house with at least 100 rooms. I’m sure it’s not that big but whenever she posts in a new room I’m like – what room is this?! Her house is to die for, check out her kitchen renovation 🀩 Fleur & her husband, Mike have the cutest daughter named River. Again, while she is included, it’s not seemingly invasive. Also, her name is River – just the coolest. Their vlogmas are a bit more posh, stunning trees, handmade gift wrapping, gin & tonics – I love it all. Her lockdown vlogs have been really delightful as well.

It’s been fun watching these Youtubers grow up & evolve over the years – I hope that they keep posting & sharing glimpses of their lives for a very long time. Do you have any vlogger recommendations, let me know & thanks for reading ❄

On the 1st Day of Blogmas: A Christmas Tag

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Or Holiday Tag – whatever you celebrate! It’s the most wonderful time of the year! Welcome to Blogmas, I hope that you are as excited as I am for this holiday season. I’m not really a huge Christmas person, like the actual day with the gifting & the feasting but I appreciate the feeling of this particular season. Everything seems a little brighter, a little more hopeful & people a little more kind. The festive season has this ability to bring out the best in humanity & the world is better for it – when people say that they wish it was Christmas all year round, I imagine that it is this feeling they are referring to. What can one expect from my Blogmas posts? A bit of everything really, some recipes, a lot of dΓ©cor/lifestyle posts, tags & such. I do not post gift guides, I’m not great at recommending gifts to others although I pride myself on giving really good gifts but only because I’m struck with a thought randomly, usually last minute. Today’s post is a collection of tag questions that I have rounded up. I was not tagged to do this, I am a bit of a tag cheater – if I see one that I like, then I do it. If you are reading this & enjoying it, consider yourself tagged!

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Just one?! If I had to choose my absolute favorite holiday film, it would be National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation because it portrays a real, gritty, yet hilarious set of circumstances that can happen when your modern family gets together. With all of the personalities & quirks, expectations – I like that it is relatable to some of my childhood Christmas memories. Maybe everything wasn’t perfect but we still had a good time, we never kidnapped anyone but I have some stories about tree fires πŸ˜€ They are humorous now but tragic in the moment, nobody was ever hurt either – I know that Christmas tree fires are no joke.

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There are strong opinions on this, I don’t have any. I had a roommate who would play Christmas music when she was stressed out & have enjoyed carols in the dead of summer on occasion. It was somewhat surprising to hear stores playing Christmas tunes so early this year but I didn’t necessarily mind it. I would say, any time that you feel in the mood is acceptable.

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Since living on my own, it really just depends on what I am doing. If I am visiting family then probably the day of but as a kid it was always stockings on the eve then we stayed up to attend midnight mass then opened gifts on Christmas Day. Nowadays, gift exchanges typically occur on random days with friends – I’m flexible πŸ˜€

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I loved Christmas as a kid, we had this loft style living area where we would put the tree & I recall the glow of those big, glass bulbs on a pitch black night. Instead of a tree skirt, my mom would roll out this big, red braided rug to set the tree on. We were the only house for literally miles on a road to nowhere but my dad would spend an entire day wrapping our big fence with lights. I don’t know how many strands it was but it took forever & I thought it was well worth the effort but mostly because I was usually just chilling in the snow while he did it. I guess I don’t have one big memory but lots of little things that I remember fondly.

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Fresh cut pine trees! I can’t have a real tree where I live & have not been able to for some years but I love a good pine scented candle. I can’t wait until I move into a house where I can have a real tree – maybe not every year but occasionally.

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Not really, I like to take one weekend day to bake cookies & watch James Bond films. I’m unsure of the rules around home baked goods this year but I figure if I put them into their own little bags then they are OK to share? I figure someone will eat them if they are sitting out?! I try to purchase a new ornament each year, I don’t like to be too matchy with my tree ornaments & have found this to be a good way to add variety.

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Currently nothing! I have owned this particular tree for going on 6 years now & still have not found a tree topper that I like. I just don’t know what I am looking for but also have not seen anything that I feel really fits it. I have a smaller tree that I sometimes put in my room that I have a topper for but it’s a much smaller tree & was much easier to find something for. I don’t know what I am looking for but hopefully I find it before the lights on this one go out & I have to find a whole new one πŸ™‚

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Pie! I’m a big fan of pie, if dinner/lunch involves particularly good pies – I will skip most of the other foods so I can have more pie. I don’t know if I’ve ever had a bad pie to be honest – I have made a few bad ones but I digress. Pecan is probably my favorite, or sweet potato…let me know what your favorite pie is, definitely always keen to try more!

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Otis Redding’s White Christmas & Stevie Wonder’s Christmas Means to Me. Aside from those, I prefer instrumental or classical music.

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Vaccines, can we all just get vaccines for gifts this year? I just want this pandemic to be in the past, I know that nothing will ever be the same but I want to start living in the future state. I’m just so tired, a huge weight will be lifted from the world when we are finally able to move forward. So Dear Santa, vaccines for all! What are you wishing for this year?

I hope that you enjoyed this tag to kick off Blogmas, let me know if you do this one as I would love to read your responses! I am certain that this will be a very different holiday season for many & I hope that we are all able to find joy in the season. There are lots of things that I am finding myself especially grateful for though I took them for granted in years prior. Thanks for stopping by, happy first day of Blogmas!!

Monday Already

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In all honesty, I completely forgot that today was Monday as I have the week off. No, I am not doing anything or traveling anywhere – just using up vacation time before I lose it. We had a COVID outbreak at my part-time job & I went in for a little bit to help out there. Thankfully, I work there so infrequently that I was not exposed but we currently have 6 associates out 😬 I suspected that this would be the week that retail workers would be hit hard. The Starbucks near my work is closed until further notice because they also had a major outbreak.

I got all of my Christmas shopping done this weekend, mostly because I think retail will be shut down post Black Friday. I could be wrong but didn’t want to find out either. Probably the highlight of my annual shopping trip is meeting up with my best friend & spending the day gift hunting. Obviously we could not do that this year but we did Skype while we wrapped gifts. Each year we do a Toys for Tots haul & just go nuts, it’s literally the most fun thing ever. We scour all of the toy gift guides & plan our attack. This year, I was fascinated by the LOL Surprise Dolls & knew I was snagging some of those. I think they’re pretty mature but they’re so popular that parents must be purchasing them? Anyway, I was super excited about Pop BB – listen, their names are completely asinine but she’s so cute. I had told my friend that I loved her because she looked like Madonna πŸ˜‚ So, we’re showing each other our Tots haul & he also got Pop BB. I was like, but I got Pop BB then he said he got one so I could keep mine πŸ˜‚ It was the nicest yet silliest thing anyone has done for me. I felt like a kid on Christmas opening that box.

Tell me she’s not the cutest.

I’m glad that my shopping is done, being out this weekend was one of the few times that I have felt truly anxious about getting sick. I generally feel confident in the restrictions & guidelines that are in place but there were so many people out that it made me nervous. I still have a small grocery run to do but plan on heading out very early to avoid the crowds.

It was a great weekend then I left this morning to discover that someone had stolen my holiday doormat which seems pretty fitting for a Monday πŸ˜‚ I don’t understand people sometimes. What did you do this weekend? I hope that you are happy, healthy & just doing the best you can 🀍

Best Of: Current Lifestyle Favorites

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As I am typing this, I realized that I pretty recently posted a lifestyle post but I figure that since I have some new cold weather things, that it will be OK. Who knows – since I’m not leaving the house again this winter, I might just be posting lifestyle favorites for the foreseeable future. I find it appalling that restaurants are being forced to close again while Target announced $22-billion in quarter three earnings. Nobody’s catching COVID at Target?! Really, nobody? That’s absolutely the place where I always think I’m going to catch it because that is one of the few places that I go & it’s always busy. I don’t know what kind of bullshit these statistics are on but they cannot be accurate. I’m truly bummed for all of my friends in the service industry, I personally think that they are being disproportionately regulated. Like most everyone else, I have been at home a lot more & here are a few items that I have been especially enjoying recently.

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I found a new robe after years of trying different robes & not liking them, I stumbled upon this Stars & Above robe a couple of weeks ago. I was actually on the hunt for more of their lounge cardigans but I’m not sure they will be releasing those again this year. This was a fantastic consolation find since I can wear it around the house & it’s not too thick or too thin. It’s the perfect length to be worn with pants or nightgowns, it belts completely closed & it’s so soft. Having never worn robes until I was gifted one from Old Navy in college, I am surprisingly particular when it comes to what robes I like. I think it’s because the Old Navy robe was my first introduction to robes & has become the standard to which I hold all robes to. This robe is the closest that I have ever found & I love it.

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I’m not one to get hyped about limited edition anything, I think it’s an easy way to sell a lot of stock before consumers come to their senses & realize that they may not need said item. I really had no idea that there was so much hype around the Starbucks seasonal mugs until purchasing one as a gift for a friend & went to three different locations to find the one that she wanted. After becoming very well acquainted with their holiday collection, I decided that I wanted one…or two for myself. They are very cute but I cannot imagine that I would need more than the two that I purchased, I mean, one can only use one cup at a item. Their holiday stuff is very cute though, very pastel, very to my taste.

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In all honesty I am unsure if these are a favorite or something that I have been using non-stop but these melamine mixing bowls were worth every penny that I spent on them. Not only are they just pretty to look at, they are perfect for all of my mixing needs. The base of these bowls has a rubber grippy strip which is awesome when I am mixing & measuring & trying not to make a mess. I found these on Amazon, come in a couple of different colors but the pink are just adorable. I do have the biggest bowl with the spout but I use it for decoration, batter pours out of the regular lipped bowls just fine.

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I mentioned a couple of posts ago that I have been surviving on mostly coffee, Cameron’s Breakfast Blend has been my go to recently. It’s a little milder, a little less caffeine that what I usually drink but it was a necessary change since I have been drinking so much coffee more recently. These pods are commercially compostable & I think the coffee tastes a bit richer from the EcoPod – could be just my imagination but I enjoy them.

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When I am not drinking coffee, I am drinking delicious cups of David’s Tea & my most recent favorite is the Sweet Potato Pie blend. Pumpkin Chai had been my front runner but when I got a taste of this sweet, nutty goodness it was over. I mean, the chai is still very good but this literally tastes like I am drinking a pie – much more enjoyable than it sounds.

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Yet another Target find, they get ya’ with those damn endcaps – these Off the Eaten Path crisps are delicious. I am not a snack person most of the time, my snack of choice is typically popcorn but with my new fillings I am being very cautious so that I never have to go back πŸ˜‰ These are very low calorie & provide just enough salty, crunchiness to satisfy my savory snack cravings. I have not dipped them in anything yet but I think they would probably be delicious with most anything.

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Those are a few of the things that have been keeping my happy at home – I will save all of my Christmas goodies for Blogmas but they have definitely been brightening my day too. What have you been enjoying lately, let me know in the comments!

It’s Friday the 13th✨

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And we’re going back into lockdown – dun, dun, dun. Not full lockdown but it definitely feels like we are going back to pre-summer COVID regulations. We are battening down the hatches at work which has me stressed out. We are still following most of the guidelines that were put in place during the stay at home order so it won’t be a big change & hopefully it is enough to see us through the flu season. I’m not holding my breath because I feel that the situation is going to get a lot worse before it gets better.

Aside from the day to day general feeling of dread & melancholy, I’ve never given much thought to Friday the 13th. My mother on the other hand was very superstitious about the date. She wouldn’t make any appointments & sometimes even pulled us out of school if she had a feeling. What she was feeling, I never knew but good thing my teachers were pretty good humored about it her eccentricities. I honestly cannot recall anything happening that I could chalk up the this dreaded day but now watch, something happens πŸ˜€ Instead of manifesting myself a flat tire or other calamity, I’m sharing 13 things I am particularly thankful for this Friday the 13th.

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I think that this is something to feel especially good about right now, aside from the trip to the dentist – I have been feeling pretty good lately.

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Seeing so many of my neighbors move out in one go really made me sad, I’m still sad about it. The parking lot being half full, seeing fewer families out & about, how strangely quiet the building has become – it’s been wearing on me. I am one of the lucky ones though that has still been able to work & keep my home through all of this & it feels like a tremendous blessing.

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The complete absence of a social life these past few months has meant a whole lot more attention for my cats & I’m loving it – I suspect they aren’t as much πŸ˜› They are endless entertainment as well as endless mess makers so I always have something to keep me busy. No, they are lovely companions.

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Now, it is certainly possible that all of this new snow will be melted by Monday but new snow always cheers me up. I love how it makes everything look fresh & new, also it makes me feel less nutty having all my holiday dΓ©cor up when there is snow on the ground. I also enjoy snowshoeing & snowboarding, the season is fast approaching!

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I think that this is the 7th week that I have been using this service & it’s awesome. It’s really cut down on my trips to the store & when I do go, it is just for essentials like coffee, oil & other bits. It’s perfect for a small household because nothing goes to waste. Back when we were supposed to be shopping for two weeks, I was constantly throwing out food or eating the same thing for days. Hello Fresh is perfect because I get two sittings in one meal, I usually make one for dinner & have the leftovers for the next day’s lunch. I do the plant based box & use substitutes when needed, it works really well.

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Who are often underpaid & overworked – you are the real stars of this show. I like to think that I am a pretty independent person but back when this all started & I was depending on essential workers to pick my groceries or deliver necessities to me – I was often hit with overwhelming gratitude for these folks & I can’t thank them enough.

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I’m a big cartoon watcher but I’ve really upped my cartoon watching recently. Currently I have been watching Scooby Doo, The Jetsons, A Charlie Brown Christmas πŸ˜€ There is just something cozy about settling down for some cartoon binge watching.

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I’ve said it numerous times & I am tremendously thankful to have my job. It’s just baffling to me that friends of mine who only just got back to work are now being put out of work again. I suspect that there will be no further relief until 2021 & to that I say – stop paying all of the people in office until they make something happen.

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Daylight savings time is still kicking my ass & I feel that coffee is the only thing sustaining me at the moment. Coffee & Jesus.

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I’m actually a bit hesitant to take my upcoming vacation, I haven’t taken any time off this year aside from a long weekend. Reason being that I get nervous about being going & then my employer realizing they don’t need me – no, but it does seem a bit risky given everything that is going on. I am taking an entire week but technically we are closed Thursday & Friday for Thanksgiving anyway. That being said, I am looking forward to the extra days off – I’m not doing anything but that’s the point I guess.

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I am not one to wish time away but I am irrationally excited for 2020 to see itself out. Will everything be sunshine & rainbows on January 1? No, we are a long way away from any rainbows but it will feel good to close the book on this long slog of a year.

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Even though we probably won’t be seeing one another any time in the near future, it’s nice to know that they are there. I can’t with the Zoom calls or drive by celebrations anymore, listen, I know what you look like – just text me.

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I work tonight…& tomorrow…& the next day but Friday always tends to feel celebratory πŸ™‚

What are you thankful for right now? Let me know if you have any Friday the 13th feelings, are you superstitious. I hope you’re well, thanks for stopping by ✨

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow✨

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Until tomorrow when I have to drive into work then it can stop snowing. I honestly think that we only have about 2 inches of actual snow & 1/4 inch of ice. I don’t love this in between weather where it’s warm enough to rain then the temperature drops & we get a nice layer of ice. Thank you, climate change.

In all seriousness, I had a lovely day off & appreciate all of the veterans who’ve sacrificed so much for my freedom. Veterans in America tend to be a forgotten population. Homelessness, lack of access to quality healthcare & mental health resources are just a few of the obstacles service men & women face. It’s unfortunate that they are forgotten by society too often. They deserve our respect & gratitude today & everyday β€οΈπŸ€πŸ’™

I went to the dentist yesterday, it was terrible. I don’t generally have issues with the dentist but this time was rough. I went in for a cleaning but an old filling was leaking so he wanted to drill it out & replace it, sounded great. It was one of those old silver fillings & I’ve been wanting to have it replaced anyway. I’ve not had a filling in awhile & forgot about the numbing process, why are those needles so big?! Vaccination needles go into much larger body parts & are half the size. I don’t even have a problem with needles but those giant, stainless steel dentist needles creep me out. So, she’s going in with that needle & I swear I could feel it going directly into the nerve & then I couldn’t blink my eye which made me freak out a little. I was all hopped up on nitrous at this point & had a moment where I felt like saying something but couldn’t tell if the needle was still in my mouth or not & didn’t want to move then cause a real problem. So I just laid there internally screaming. Unfortunately, my childhood dentist removed much more tooth than my dentist could tell on the surface & it took forever for him to fill it completely. Good thing my entire face stayed numb for at least the next 6 hours. I actually started to worry, I’ve never experienced such intense numbness before. The filling looks beautiful though, couldn’t be happier. I’m never going back πŸ˜› At one point while I was internally screaming, I started to wonder if I was actually trying to scream but couldn’t or was I screaming & they just weren’t saying anything? I watch too many horror movies.

Today, I treated myself to about a pound of mashed potatoes & ran some errands. Let me know what you’re up to, any snow in your neck of the woods? Don’t forget to thank a vet, have a beautiful night πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡Έ