It’s Monday

Life

I’m neither for or against Mondays on the whole, I don’t find them anymore more trying that any other day of the week but today was an exception. It started at 5 AM…

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It rained all weekend, last night I noticed that there was water coming through my spare room ceiling. I wouldn’t have noticed it had there not been a lovely pool of water on the carpet. I texted the building manager who said that the roofers were starting this week and he would take a look in the morning. At 5 AM, he texts me telling me to move my car because the workers were going to be using the parking lot. Had I been more alert, I would have realized that this made no sense because I park in the garage but I peeled out of there anyway less than half awake. I run into the building manager in the parking lot who told me he wanted me to move my car into the garage. That’s where it was. He had my car confused with another black car and told me to move my car back. Then he asks me if I’ve been smelling smoked meats in the building lately. What the fuck are you talking about. No, I hadn’t noticed but apparently someone complained that people have been grilling on their decks. I’ve never noticed but nothing would shock me at this point. I get the car parked, get back inside and decided to lay on the couch until I had to start work. 7 AM rolls around, the roof work commences, someone starts screaming at the roofers to shut up. Not just once, not like twice, like a dozen times. Yea, 7 AM is a tad early but we all knew this was happening and it’s only for the week anyway. People have really lost their minds. I’ll keep you posted on the smoked meats situation. 

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I work in the public sector & have been getting a lot of feedback from both sides of the spectrum on how the government is handling the corona situation. Today, my inbox was full of vandalism reports. For a state that’s supposed to have been on a Stay at Home Order, people sure stopped keeping an eye on their kids. I don’t care that they are bored, it  would serve everyone right if we did have to stay inside all summer. Also, penises are such unimaginative ‘graffiti’ like, raise your kids better. 

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It was such a weird morning, I zoned out for half an hour and showed up late to a conference call. I’m not sure that anyone noticed but I felt like a moron. In the middle of this meeting I get a text asking if I’m still getting rid of my couch. Again, what the fuck are you talking about. I had posted my couch for free on Craigslist a long time ago but had since resolved to not get a new one. I must have not taken the posting down and after years of waffling back and forth on getting a new one, finally have the opportunity. It’s not a bad couch, it’s just old and clunky and has definitely seen better years. Do I keep it? Do I finally get rid of it especially now since I have someone interested in taking it?! Being a single female, I don’t even like owning a couch because they are such a pain to move. Maybe I’ll go really nuts, get rid of the couch and just cover the living room in floor pillows. Side note, how is it that I could comfortably take a nap on the floor as a kid and now it’s literally the worst thing ever?

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I’m only half-way through the day and am exhausted. I don’t think the roofers will knock off until sundown but they aren’t that loud anyway. Once a flock of geese landed on the roof and they made considerably more racket. I’ve had a Pepsi and two pour-over coffees but I could lay down for 3-hour nap literally right now. 

How’s your Monday so far? Anything fun on the agenda for Memorial Day…oh, that’s right – summer is cancelled. I hope you’re doing the best you can wherever you are 💛

Working From Home is Ruining My Home

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I will preface this by saying that I know that I am extremely lucky in that my employer has allowed me to work from home & that I have not my job because of all of this. A lot of this satirical and meant to be humorous, also though, I’m sick of working at home.

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The first day working at home was a struggle, my internet was just not equipped to handle all of the things that I was suddenly trying to do. My laptop (we do not have work issued equipment) was struggling too. I use some beefy software for my job and suddenly my zippy little laptop was hardly loading. I had to upgrade my internet to the fastest I can get in my area & I had to pay an additional $99 installation fee! I also purchased additional storage for my laptop just to get it in working order. All to the tune of a few hundred dollars. Now, I know that I’m saving money on gas but my new internet costs 3 times as much as I spend on gas monthly so it’s not a wash for me. I improvised a desk and pulled a sofa table into my bedroom but now am looking at needing a chair since we aren’t going back to the office any time soon. And then what will I do with said chair when we go back to the office? I don’t particularly need an office set up and will put my furniture back where it actually goes.

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Kids (not mine, we have quite a few who live in the building and they’re out in the hallway constantly), package deliveries, my neighbor’s doing yard work. I didn’t realize how quiet the office is and how loud my living space is. I don’t notice it when I’m home probably because I’m busy living and probably making more noise than I would at work anyway. I consider my building to be unusually quite for an apartment but it’s driving me nuts at the moment.

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Being in the office and working with a fairly flexible department, I can take a break whenever I want to/need to. Obviously, if I go to the restroom and my boss stops by my desk then he would just swing back knowing that I would be back shortly. Now however, I take my phone to the bathroom in case someone calls because I don’t want them to think I’m slacking off. It’s like I’m working all of the time when my workload hasn’t increased drastically.

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My ‘office’ is in my room, well it is now – before I set something up I was just sitting in random places. When I go to bed, it feels like I am sleeping at work. When I wake up, I’m immediately at work. It’s this really warped feeling that I hope goes away when we do get back in the office.

Working from home is definitely a personal preference as I am finding out. Some people love it and some people really struggle – I’m struggling. It’s just a chore at this point and I feel like I’m constantly at work. Unfortunately, I think that the attitude from some of these employers is that we should be so lucky even having the choice to work at home. I get that but I’ve never sought out a job that allows for work from home because it just doesn’t appeal to me. It’s like none of use should expect anything from our employers now because thank God they are still paying us. Kind of a shitty way to feel, honestly. Since this will be the routine for the foreseeable future, I will keep trying to make the best of it. It is nice to get chores done and out of the way during my lunch break so then I can enjoy the evening. I generally eat pretty well but having time to make a nice salad for lunch or time consuming dinner is a treat and I am sure that there will be things I miss when we are no longer at home.

I hope that you’re happy and healthy and just doing the best that you can, let me know what life changes you are working through at the moment.

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How About a Ghost Story…

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I’ve had the most difficult time trying to stick to a sleep schedule. I’m going to be wrecked when we go back to work. Living alone & staying up well into the twilight hours gives me the creeps, I don’t know why I keep doing it. It’s especially creepy when you think you’re being haunted. I’ve mentioned my elderly neighbor who passed away before but things have still been weird & since I can’t sleep, I’ll creep you out too 😉

Going on two years ago, my elderly neighbor passed away in her apartment & wasn’t found for awhile. Our kitchen & living rooms are on the same wall, I never heard her much anyway so sadly, I didn’t notice that she had died. I did run into her often, she was always pushing this metal cart filled with coloring books, children’s books & other goodies that any grandma would have on hand for her grandkids. She would always say that she was off to see her grandkids or that they were coming over – she was a genuinely sweet old lady. I did notice her absence but figured that she was on an extended visit with the grandkids. Then one day, my kitchen just started to feel off. I’ve shared photos of my kitchen before, it’s bright & cheery, filled with colorful decor but it started to get this dank feeling I couldn’t shake. It was late fall, I chalked it up to rain and started burning candles and baking to make it feel cozy again but nothing worked. Now, I had an acupuncturist tell me years ago that I was an empath. How he knew this, I have no idea. Do I believe it, no idea but a few days into my kitchen feeling weird, I got sick. I never sleep in my bed when I’m sick & prefer to lay on the couch. Typically, my cats sleep wherever I am but I noticed that they were sticking to the back rooms of my apartment which started to give me the willies. I was home sick for five days over a weekend, on two nights I woke to my stove’s overhead light being on. My couch faces my stove, it’s incredibly unlikely that I would have left it on then laid down but figured I was just out of it from being sick. This entire time, my neighbor was the last thing on my mind but had I been paying attention, I would have realized that her apartment had been dead silent for nearly two weeks.

Fast forward a few days later, I’m finally back at work feeling fatigued but otherwise well enough. I’m pulling into my apartment complex & the coroner is parked outside. I felt like everything was suddenly slow motion, my breath caught & I knew immediately my neighbor had died. I stopped by the office to check in with the building manager. She had been sitting in her rocker, in her living room for just under three weeks. I was sleeping in my living, basically right next to her for at least four nights. He said that he started to worry when she hadn’t been to the office to chat with him & was the one to discover her. It was all around just really tragic.

Eventually he started to clean & renovate her apartment as she had lived there for going on ten years. However, I noticed that the unit sat vacant for quite some time. When I asked the building manager if he was struggling to find a tenant, he said that he wasn’t able to locate any relatives so her stuff was still in the apartment. I was shocked, when I mentioned her grandkids he said that she didn’t have any family that he knew of. I’ve never figured out if she was lying or if she was struggling with dementia. I used to work in memory care & didn’t notice any signs that she wasn’t completely lucid. Maybe she just didn’t want people to feel sorry for her, I dunno. At any rate, weird things kept happening while the unit sat empty. My stove light would be on when I’d get home, the cats still wouldn’t hang out in the living room & had taken to staring at my front door at 3 am. I’d inexplicably be awake & find them all crowded near the front door night after night. Sometimes I stay in bed, refusing to look at the time because I know what time it is & where the cats are . The kitchen still feels off & I almost never sit out in the living room.

Finally, my building manager let me know that the unit was being rented but only as of this February. He said most of her stuff had been donated, no family ever responded to the public notices he had published. I was relieved, it would be nice to hear some movement in there, I thought it would help the atmosphere of my apartment as well. Sadly, it hasn’t & my kitchen still feels gloomy, the living room a bit sad & so completely silent. If it weren’t for running into the new gal a few times, I’d assume that there’s nobody over there.

I don’t think she’s malicious but maybe a bit bitter that nobody noticed her absence. I get a tingly sensation when I turn my back to the living room wall & scoot down the hall to my bedroom. I wholeheartedly believe that she’s still here, pushing her cart of children’s goodies up & down the hallway.

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Friday Thoughts…

Life

Fair warning, I will mostly be complaining in this post so if you are feeling down or particularly joyful – maybe skip this one 🙂

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Not that I loved working for the weekend but Friday doesn’t feel like Friday anymore. Working from home makes almost everyday feel like Friday because pre-Corona, that would have been a Friday luxury. Since every day feels like Friday, the next day always feels like Monday. I’m in this weird Friday/Monday time warp where it’s Monday morning then Friday evening every monkey flying day. It’s exhausting.

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Unprecedented, novel, uncertain, tumultuous, new normal – these phrases and numerous others must be stricken from the lexicon. We get it, many of us have never experienced something like this in our lifetime, we don’t need a reminder. Also, new normal? Do we remember what the old normal was like? Aside from the pandemic, the world was pretty much a shambles. I mean, at least a plus side to the pandemic is that it’s so traumatic that it’s taking our minds off of the current events that were were current events pre-corona. I’m going to stop saying pre-corona now 😉

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My place of work has started very preliminary discussions around what going back to work will look like, mostly because our shelter in place order expires on May 4 & the assumption is that some restrictions will be lifted. Plexiglass shields and temperature checkpoints are some of the precautions being discussed. All I can say is that I hope that the antibody testing becomes widely accessible because I think I already had corona.

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In mid-December I became extremely sick with a respiratory illness that I ended up being sent to the ER for (I needed additional testing, not admitted or anything). They didn’t know what I had, I was sent home with steroids, an inhaler, an antibiotic and saw a respiratory therapist for a month for nebulizer treatments. I was sick for weeks & had complications with lung inflammation for even longer. I have pleurisy in my right lung that causes pain when I’m running or working out still. It was chalked up to a case of pneumonia but now I’m wondering, if corona has been in the US for longer than experts knew then some of us have likely already been sick. Better believe I am getting that antibody test as soon as I can. It would be nice to know so that I can start my MS treatment again which has been stalled since mid-March and indefinitely since the medication I take is immunosuppressive.

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I do believe that each day that we get through is another day closer to this new normal and that makes me feel a little less anxious. I still have a job, I’m starting my urban garden and Amazon donated 250,000 euro (is that what it’s called still) to a bookstore charity. Some days I feel like everything is going to be alright & other days I feel like nothing will ever be the same. Perhaps it won’t, being a natural introvert who loves being at home, even I have felt a yearning to take a trip or wander through a mall window shopping. I cannot imagine what people who do these things on the regular are feeling. As soon as the travel bans are lifted, I’m getting my passport renewed and I’m going somewhere. I mean, maybe just to Idaho but I’m going.

I hope that you are making it through the days, stay safe wherever you are 💛

Hello From the Inside: Makeup Edition

Clean Beauty

In all honesty, I don’t think that we are in a true quarantine –  we are under a shelter in place order that seems a bit more flexible than what other states/cities are experiencing. Is everyone following it? I dunno, on the occasions that I’ve had to go out, there are an awful lot of people out and about. Minnesota is doing relatively good but who knows what this summer will bring. Anyway, I’ve worked from home before but under much more felicitous circumstances. The corporation that I worked for was undergoing a posh remodel of our new building and we all had to move home for 6’ish months. We also didn’t have videoconferencing capability so it didn’t really matter what anyone looked like 😛 This new, depressing, shockingly invasive work from home circumstance has been a bit shocking. I feel like that I not only have to worry about looking presentable but also having my home look presentable with people suddenly being able to peer into it. It’s not like they are strangers but certainly not people who I would have over to my home. No offense to them. The first week at home, I could not be bothered to get ready because it was just a shit week. My close friend lost his salon, numerous others were being furloughed or facing reductions in income and I was worried about all of the unknowns. I’m feeling a bit better and very fortunate that I still have a job to even do at home – I also feel as though making the effort to keep my routine normal helps get through the day.

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I don’t really typically wear primer but I accidentally grabbed this tula brighten up smoothing primer gel the last time I was in ULTA thinking it was my face cream. Since I can’t return it, I’ve just decided to start priming again. I’ve never used a primer quite like this one and it does have a learning curve. The gel texture makes it prone to pilling, I let it warm up on my finger a bit and then press it in but only in areas where I have texture. I enjoy this product but not sure that it is a repurchase since I just don’t use a lot of primers.

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I haven’t been wearing foundation because it’s expensive and I just don’t feel the need if I’m not leaving my home. My typical weekend ‘foundation’ is just concealer too, only applied to blemishes and discolored areas and then blended with a very damp sponge. I say this because I think a damper sponge gives a better blend when using a high coverage product that isn’t applied all over the face.

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Then I set my base with a powder foundation, this provides a little more coverage without adding more texture. I buff in a little highlighter too for a subtle glow and a little color.

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I’m pale already, sitting inside all day is not helping – I can’t use dark bronzers because that would look crazy so I’ve been using the Hoola Lite just on the perimeter of my face.

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And that’s about it, I might just keep doing this when we go back to the office because it only takes about 15 minutes. It probably looks that way too 😛 I’m certainly wearing way less makeup than I am used to but at least I feel presentable and like I’m getting ready for the day. I’ve had a harder time keeping up on my skincare routine, my skin was a mess a couple of weeks ago and I really scaled back what I was doing. It’s mostly back to where it was sans the peeling, I’ve had to reintroduce tretinoin but can’t argue with the results.

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What am I doing with my hair? Absolutely nothing 😛 Let me know how you’ve been keeping your life ‘normal’ and what helps you through the day 💛

Hello From the Inside

Life

Two months of zero posts, I was out living my life, hitting the gym, cooking meals, getting to bed on time and then BAM – mother nature intervened and I think I’m going to have a lot more time on my hands. So, welcome back to my blog 😉 I have been at home for the past week, coffee intake is at an all time high, productivity at an all time low – I blame my cats. But I cannot express how grateful I am that my job is still intact.

I have to say that I am pretty pissed off about this whole coronavirus thing, just when the weather is good enough to get outside, we are told to stay in. Now, I think parks and trails are fine if you are still social distancing but I’m not a doctor. Also though, I work in Parks & Rec and our parks our open but be sure to bring your own sanitary wipes. Gas prices could not be any lower but  who needs it to get anywhere since we’re all staying home? Actually, grocery stores outside of the metro are pretty well stocked and if people don’t stop panic buying everything in sight, I’m going to have to take a trip up north so good thing gas is cheap. Here’s what’s on my mind…

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I’m lucky, I grocery shop on Wednesdays to just avoid crowds in general and I got my groceries well before things went nuts. That being said, when can I eat them exactly? Should I wait? Will there be more groceries in a couple of weeks when people settle into this new normal? Good thing I’m already fasting for Lent…Totally off topic but I saw a photo of the Pope walking the streets of Rome! Who let him outside?!

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Here is something that I am struggling with, physical stores have been on the decline for the past decade in the US because of online shopping. Now we can’t seem to stay home? As a capricorn, I’m skeptical of everything but it really does make me wonder about the information we’re being fed – either everyone is out shopping or we aren’t…explain this to me. If everyone who could stay home would, that’d be great.

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The social distancing strategy seems like a good idea but I would also like to volunteer to be infected so then I am immune and can go about my life knowing that I’m not putting anyone in danger. It’s hard to believe that we aren’t just prolonging the pandemic by not preemptively exposing the healthy population and getting them immune to protect the at risk. Is that totally nuts? It’s definitely going to get worse before it gets better, I think that’s to be expected but I wish we could speed it up.

I hope you’re doing well, hanging in there…let me know what you’ve been up to in the comments! If you want some light reading on pandemics throughout history, I found this one interesting and kinda comforting – the human race has survived some shit.

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Moody Monday & Bathroom Refresh

Life

I am not one of those people who dislikes Mondays but the Monday after the holidays is a terrible day. I don’t know about you but I tend to feel deflated after the merriment has commenced, the tree comes down and the world just looks a little duller. I took my tree down this weekend and even though I do leave out a few winter decorations, my apartment just looks so drab and sad. I recall seeing a comic strip when I was a kid, it was a tree thrown in the gutter to be picked up and had a forgotten ornament hanging from one of the branches – I am that tree today. Anyway, it’s weird how something like that sticks with you – I must have been 8’ish when I read that comic strip. My birthday was Friday, I skipped posting since I was out and about but will post a birthday haul once all of my goodies arrive. I did make a stop at IKEA to pick up some items for my bathroom that I had been going back and forth on. It feels complete at this point, I have been slowly collecting items for months now. At one point, I had a bright white hotel bathroom theme in mind but soon realized that hotel bathrooms are so bright and shiny because they get bleached all of the time. I kept some white elements but added in a dusty pink similar to what I have in my bedroom.

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These rugs are my favorite thing that I have ever purchased from IKEA. I’ve had them in grey in my other bathroom and those rugs are at least 6 years old but still look great even with weekly washings. The color hasn’t faded, the fabric hasn’t pilled or frayed and they are only about $9 each. The white curtain is from Target, I think but also I don’t remember because I picked up this past summer. I do recall being shocked at how much a freaking shower curtain costs. The pink and white towels were a clearance find at Bed, Bath & Beyond – they are a bit smaller than I prefer, I am more of a bath sheet person but they are nice and thick.

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I’m showcasing the fact that I now only have 6 of these plastic drawers full of makeup and not 18 that I had less than a year ago. Most of what was not expired, I was able to give away but I have pledged to reduce my collection by another 3 drawers by the end of this year.

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My vanity is pretty boring, just how I like it – the pink vase was an IKEA pick up from this past summer, the baskets were also Bed, bath & Beyond finds, the wax warmer is from Amazon and I purchased a second Echo device for my bathroom. Still loving the Echo, I can listen to the news or books while I am getting ready, it’s awesome. I don’t love apartment bathrooms because they always have a used feeling about them, this one isn’t too bad but the sink is stained and it drives me nuts. Also, the drain stopper popped off at some point in time, I cannot figure out how to get it back on but also don’t want to lose it so it just sits there 😀

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Another part of the reason that I ditched the white theme is because of this little dude. He is 8-weeks old and his name is Pluto, I had been sitting a cat for a few weeks and my cats were totally into it so I figured that they’d like a permanent playmate. Oddly, not the case but they are starting to warm up to him. Anyway, since he’s too small to be out with the big cats all of the time, he has to be in the bathroom during the day if I am not home.

Did you survive your Monday? Does anyone else feel like a gutter tree or sooty pile of snow 😛 Let me know how you get through the post-holiday funk & thanks for reading!