Friday Thoughts: Eugenia Cooney Has Got To Go

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If you are someone who is sensitive to discussions of eating disorders or a fan of Eugenia Cooney, this one isn’t for you. Happy New Year, blah, blah, blah – 2021 is shaping up to be just as weird as 2020. Yay πŸ˜‰ Anyway, a couple of nights ago I am rolling through YouTube trying to find something to watch, I don’t subscribe to a ton of channels & will find myself down the odd rabbit hole on occasion. My recommended videos are a variety of everything & nothing since I will watch anything excluding diet, weight loss, exercise channels, etc. because as someone who manages an eating disorder, this content can be tricky to ingest. Now & again, the YouTube algorithm will throw me the odd health channel probably because I watch a lot of lifestyle channels & it’s fine but I found myself absolutely disgusted when Eugenia’s most recent video popped up in my feed.

I don’t watch her, I did watch the Shane Dawson video, just never her specifically but she has been a name within the community for a long time. Unfortunately, her images are often used as inspiration or encouragement for people looking to fuel their disorders. It’s like – if she can be that skinny & not dead then I can too. She is stupid & blind to her disorder at best, dangerous & fully in control of what she is doing at worst. I personally believe that it’s the latter, she full well knows that her content is pro-ana, thinspo & fodder for perverts or the morbidly curious. By allowing her to have a monetized channel, YouTube is allowing her more accessibility to people of all ages & basically paying her to kill herself. What is even more twisted is that to my knowledge, she has never admitted that she has a problem which is incredibly misleading to her following, young people especially. Not only can she not admit that she has a problem, she probably never shares the graphic details of what her disorder is doing to her body. Instead, she presents herself as this cutesy, terminally delightful, childlike being who just wants to live her life. That’s fine, that’s complete bullshit but it’s fine – take it offline then & stop monetizing your mental illness.

Is she providing tips or commentary on how she maintains her outrageously low body weight? No, probably not but she is presenting this everything is fine faΓ§ade that is dangerous. She is showcasing her illness, this glamorizes it & could encourage others to try & do the same. To me, it’s no different than watching your favorite beauty guru & wanting to become really good at makeup application so that you can be the next big guru. Since she won’t be honest about what’s actually going on, I can provide some insight into the physical toll that a long term eating disorder can take on a body – the shit they don’t tell you in school.

I was actively bulimic from 17 to 26 years old, I say actively because it’s something that I manage each day & choose not to engage in. I was never a binge & purge person, I would eat a regular meal & then expel it. I have occasional slip ups, going vegan has definitely been tricky because it puts a lot of emphasis on food & this can feel unhealthily obsessive but hasn’t caused any major issues. Eugenia is 26 now, when I finally started treatment at the same age, it was only after being fitted for a partial denture because many of my back teeth were falling out or so severely decayed that they had to be pulled. I didn’t care that I was freakishly thin, I liked the way that I looked, for some reason the denture thing really triggered me & finding out that my dentist was a recovering anorexic that encouraged me to take the next step. Thankfully now, I have been able to replace my teeth with individual dental implants on posts which was as an extremely painful (and expensive) procedure. Forcing yourself to throw up consistently also causes bizarre issues with the throat muscles & can lead to years of involuntary puking. I am 34 now, I cannot brush my teeth without throwing up or dry heaving. It’s embarrassing, not as embarrassing as some of the instances that occurred earlier in my recovery but it still sucks. Chronic acid reflux & bouts of IBS are other digestive issues that I experience on the regular. I have arthritis in my back, ribs & deteriorated bone density in one hip that could necessitate a hip replacement by age 40. The thing is, you can recover from an eating disorder but you’ll never be quite the same. It isn’t a game, it’s not just simply wanting to be thin & then being able to go back to a normal existence once you’ve attained your goal. There really isn’t a goal aside from wanting to be thinner & wanting others to notice that you are thinner. I’m not even considered an extreme case, long term but not extreme & this shit has plagued me for decades. It will always have an impact on my day to day life & seeing some little brat on the internet glamorizing a deadly lifestyle is infuriating.

There is no shame in admitting that you have an eating disorder even if you aren’t ready to deal with it. At the least, she could admit her issue & be honest that she doesn’t feel the need to seek treatment but be honest about it. Tell young viewers that it’s a shitty existence that makes you feel like shit all of the time. Tell them that your bones ache, that you can’t sleep, that it doesn’t truly make you happy. Tell them that it’s an existence that you wouldn’t wish on anyone. Let them know the risks; heart failure, organ failure, mood swings, chronic headaches, blindness, seizures, death – just to name a few. Eugenia Cooney is not living, she is dying. If she can’t admit this & censor her content then YouTube & other platforms need to step in & do it for her, I’m still so disgusted that I’m considering boycotting YouTube altogether. Parents can only do so much to protect their kids online & sometimes, thinspo content isn’t easily spotted, it can seem like a harmless inspirational quote if you aren’t wise to the community.

I don’t pity her, just like I don’t pity myself – eating disorders are mental health disorders but it’s something we can choose to deal with. I would encourage anyone struggling with an eating disorder to at least stop & really consider what’s going on, even if you aren’t ready to seek treatment – just stop & think for a moment. Consider a life that isn’t consumed by an eating disorder. It’s a much more beautiful existence. Sure, I am a bit fat now & feel about 80 years old sometimes but overall am much healthier & happier for seeking treatment. I hope that you are happy, healthy & just doing the best that you can ❀

On The 9th Day of Blogmas: The LUSH Tag

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To start, I am not a Lushie – there are two times each year that I shop at LUSH, Christmas & when I run out of Karma Kream. I am supremely annoyed that my beloved Karma Kream is being discontinued, again, when I know that it will just be brought back eventually. Anyway, I have enough for now but have yet to order any Christmas items which I was ordering today when I came upon this fun little tag & figured I would give it a whirl.

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A former co-worker of mine was obsessed with LUSH & we would always stop in there when we went to the Mall of America which, used to be a lot more often than I do now. Over the years, I started to find products that I really enjoyed & find that they have the perfect gifts for just about anyone.

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I don’t go to the physical stores any longer, I think they are too small & chaotic. These days, I usually place an order 1-2 times a year & mostly for Christmas goodies & gifts. I think the stores are very lovely to look at but why are they so small?!

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Karma Kream! It is the perfect mix of sweet & musky plus it is a really great moisturizer for dry skin. I hope that they do bring it back at some point, I feel that this will be the second time that this product has been ‘discontinued.’

Sweet Husky

Karm & Goddess are my go to soaps but I don’t use them everyday, they are more of a treat. Unfortunately, essential oils wreak havoc on my skin if I use them continually. Karm is a bar of patchouli goodness & Goddess is a jasmine dream. Both scents are beautiful in all of the different formats.

Sweet Husky

I love baths, here’s the deal, the diverter on my faucet recently stopped working though so I have been filling the bath by running the shower. You know what sound I hate? Shower water spraying standing water. Drives me nuts. Now, how long do I let it ride without being fixed before I take that puppy off myself? Probably until my LUSH box gets here. I love all bath bombs from LUSH – Butterball & Shoot for the Stars are probably in my top though. Goddess is again, really fabulous & it makes the bathroom smell heavenly for hours. I think there has only been one bath bomb that I did not enjoy & it was because it made my skin so itchy.

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Happy Hippy, not contest – it’s a light, fruity scent that is very pleasant at any time of year. Rose Jam is a winter time favorite, a lot sweeter than what I typically go for but still enjoyable. I have not used their jelly products, I’m not sure how they would last & if they would be messy.

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I have used some of their skincare but honestly, was not impressed for the price. I feel as though LUSH capitalizes on the green beauty, clean beauty, etc. trend & I just don’t think some of the products were very effective. Their shampoo bars though are awesome – I have dry hair so my favorites are both softening bars. I have Honey I Washed My Hair and Jason & The Argan Oil on rotation in my shower. I’ve tried a couple of their conditioner bars but stick to Candy Rain for my dry hair.

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The Full of Grace solid serum, I loved the concept & thought it sounded like it would be good for my skin but holy break outs. Also, it didn’t melt on contact like other pressed serums I have used do. It really took some tugging & pulling to get it onto my face which isn’t something I want to be putting my skin through on the regular.

Are you a LUSH fan, are all of the stores so small? I’m curious to know what they look like in other regions. I live in close proximity to 4 different locations & they are roughly the size of a modest master bedroom. Let me know what your favorite products are – thanks for stopping by 🀍

On the 1st Day of Blogmas: A Christmas Tag

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Or Holiday Tag – whatever you celebrate! It’s the most wonderful time of the year! Welcome to Blogmas, I hope that you are as excited as I am for this holiday season. I’m not really a huge Christmas person, like the actual day with the gifting & the feasting but I appreciate the feeling of this particular season. Everything seems a little brighter, a little more hopeful & people a little more kind. The festive season has this ability to bring out the best in humanity & the world is better for it – when people say that they wish it was Christmas all year round, I imagine that it is this feeling they are referring to. What can one expect from my Blogmas posts? A bit of everything really, some recipes, a lot of dΓ©cor/lifestyle posts, tags & such. I do not post gift guides, I’m not great at recommending gifts to others although I pride myself on giving really good gifts but only because I’m struck with a thought randomly, usually last minute. Today’s post is a collection of tag questions that I have rounded up. I was not tagged to do this, I am a bit of a tag cheater – if I see one that I like, then I do it. If you are reading this & enjoying it, consider yourself tagged!

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Just one?! If I had to choose my absolute favorite holiday film, it would be National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation because it portrays a real, gritty, yet hilarious set of circumstances that can happen when your modern family gets together. With all of the personalities & quirks, expectations – I like that it is relatable to some of my childhood Christmas memories. Maybe everything wasn’t perfect but we still had a good time, we never kidnapped anyone but I have some stories about tree fires πŸ˜€ They are humorous now but tragic in the moment, nobody was ever hurt either – I know that Christmas tree fires are no joke.

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There are strong opinions on this, I don’t have any. I had a roommate who would play Christmas music when she was stressed out & have enjoyed carols in the dead of summer on occasion. It was somewhat surprising to hear stores playing Christmas tunes so early this year but I didn’t necessarily mind it. I would say, any time that you feel in the mood is acceptable.

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Since living on my own, it really just depends on what I am doing. If I am visiting family then probably the day of but as a kid it was always stockings on the eve then we stayed up to attend midnight mass then opened gifts on Christmas Day. Nowadays, gift exchanges typically occur on random days with friends – I’m flexible πŸ˜€

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I loved Christmas as a kid, we had this loft style living area where we would put the tree & I recall the glow of those big, glass bulbs on a pitch black night. Instead of a tree skirt, my mom would roll out this big, red braided rug to set the tree on. We were the only house for literally miles on a road to nowhere but my dad would spend an entire day wrapping our big fence with lights. I don’t know how many strands it was but it took forever & I thought it was well worth the effort but mostly because I was usually just chilling in the snow while he did it. I guess I don’t have one big memory but lots of little things that I remember fondly.

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Fresh cut pine trees! I can’t have a real tree where I live & have not been able to for some years but I love a good pine scented candle. I can’t wait until I move into a house where I can have a real tree – maybe not every year but occasionally.

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Not really, I like to take one weekend day to bake cookies & watch James Bond films. I’m unsure of the rules around home baked goods this year but I figure if I put them into their own little bags then they are OK to share? I figure someone will eat them if they are sitting out?! I try to purchase a new ornament each year, I don’t like to be too matchy with my tree ornaments & have found this to be a good way to add variety.

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Currently nothing! I have owned this particular tree for going on 6 years now & still have not found a tree topper that I like. I just don’t know what I am looking for but also have not seen anything that I feel really fits it. I have a smaller tree that I sometimes put in my room that I have a topper for but it’s a much smaller tree & was much easier to find something for. I don’t know what I am looking for but hopefully I find it before the lights on this one go out & I have to find a whole new one πŸ™‚

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Pie! I’m a big fan of pie, if dinner/lunch involves particularly good pies – I will skip most of the other foods so I can have more pie. I don’t know if I’ve ever had a bad pie to be honest – I have made a few bad ones but I digress. Pecan is probably my favorite, or sweet potato…let me know what your favorite pie is, definitely always keen to try more!

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Otis Redding’s White Christmas & Stevie Wonder’s Christmas Means to Me. Aside from those, I prefer instrumental or classical music.

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Vaccines, can we all just get vaccines for gifts this year? I just want this pandemic to be in the past, I know that nothing will ever be the same but I want to start living in the future state. I’m just so tired, a huge weight will be lifted from the world when we are finally able to move forward. So Dear Santa, vaccines for all! What are you wishing for this year?

I hope that you enjoyed this tag to kick off Blogmas, let me know if you do this one as I would love to read your responses! I am certain that this will be a very different holiday season for many & I hope that we are all able to find joy in the season. There are lots of things that I am finding myself especially grateful for though I took them for granted in years prior. Thanks for stopping by, happy first day of Blogmas!!

Monday Already

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In all honesty, I completely forgot that today was Monday as I have the week off. No, I am not doing anything or traveling anywhere – just using up vacation time before I lose it. We had a COVID outbreak at my part-time job & I went in for a little bit to help out there. Thankfully, I work there so infrequently that I was not exposed but we currently have 6 associates out 😬 I suspected that this would be the week that retail workers would be hit hard. The Starbucks near my work is closed until further notice because they also had a major outbreak.

I got all of my Christmas shopping done this weekend, mostly because I think retail will be shut down post Black Friday. I could be wrong but didn’t want to find out either. Probably the highlight of my annual shopping trip is meeting up with my best friend & spending the day gift hunting. Obviously we could not do that this year but we did Skype while we wrapped gifts. Each year we do a Toys for Tots haul & just go nuts, it’s literally the most fun thing ever. We scour all of the toy gift guides & plan our attack. This year, I was fascinated by the LOL Surprise Dolls & knew I was snagging some of those. I think they’re pretty mature but they’re so popular that parents must be purchasing them? Anyway, I was super excited about Pop BB – listen, their names are completely asinine but she’s so cute. I had told my friend that I loved her because she looked like Madonna πŸ˜‚ So, we’re showing each other our Tots haul & he also got Pop BB. I was like, but I got Pop BB then he said he got one so I could keep mine πŸ˜‚ It was the nicest yet silliest thing anyone has done for me. I felt like a kid on Christmas opening that box.

Tell me she’s not the cutest.

I’m glad that my shopping is done, being out this weekend was one of the few times that I have felt truly anxious about getting sick. I generally feel confident in the restrictions & guidelines that are in place but there were so many people out that it made me nervous. I still have a small grocery run to do but plan on heading out very early to avoid the crowds.

It was a great weekend then I left this morning to discover that someone had stolen my holiday doormat which seems pretty fitting for a Monday πŸ˜‚ I don’t understand people sometimes. What did you do this weekend? I hope that you are happy, healthy & just doing the best you can 🀍

Best Of: Current Lifestyle Favorites

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As I am typing this, I realized that I pretty recently posted a lifestyle post but I figure that since I have some new cold weather things, that it will be OK. Who knows – since I’m not leaving the house again this winter, I might just be posting lifestyle favorites for the foreseeable future. I find it appalling that restaurants are being forced to close again while Target announced $22-billion in quarter three earnings. Nobody’s catching COVID at Target?! Really, nobody? That’s absolutely the place where I always think I’m going to catch it because that is one of the few places that I go & it’s always busy. I don’t know what kind of bullshit these statistics are on but they cannot be accurate. I’m truly bummed for all of my friends in the service industry, I personally think that they are being disproportionately regulated. Like most everyone else, I have been at home a lot more & here are a few items that I have been especially enjoying recently.

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I found a new robe after years of trying different robes & not liking them, I stumbled upon this Stars & Above robe a couple of weeks ago. I was actually on the hunt for more of their lounge cardigans but I’m not sure they will be releasing those again this year. This was a fantastic consolation find since I can wear it around the house & it’s not too thick or too thin. It’s the perfect length to be worn with pants or nightgowns, it belts completely closed & it’s so soft. Having never worn robes until I was gifted one from Old Navy in college, I am surprisingly particular when it comes to what robes I like. I think it’s because the Old Navy robe was my first introduction to robes & has become the standard to which I hold all robes to. This robe is the closest that I have ever found & I love it.

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I’m not one to get hyped about limited edition anything, I think it’s an easy way to sell a lot of stock before consumers come to their senses & realize that they may not need said item. I really had no idea that there was so much hype around the Starbucks seasonal mugs until purchasing one as a gift for a friend & went to three different locations to find the one that she wanted. After becoming very well acquainted with their holiday collection, I decided that I wanted one…or two for myself. They are very cute but I cannot imagine that I would need more than the two that I purchased, I mean, one can only use one cup at a item. Their holiday stuff is very cute though, very pastel, very to my taste.

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In all honesty I am unsure if these are a favorite or something that I have been using non-stop but these melamine mixing bowls were worth every penny that I spent on them. Not only are they just pretty to look at, they are perfect for all of my mixing needs. The base of these bowls has a rubber grippy strip which is awesome when I am mixing & measuring & trying not to make a mess. I found these on Amazon, come in a couple of different colors but the pink are just adorable. I do have the biggest bowl with the spout but I use it for decoration, batter pours out of the regular lipped bowls just fine.

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I mentioned a couple of posts ago that I have been surviving on mostly coffee, Cameron’s Breakfast Blend has been my go to recently. It’s a little milder, a little less caffeine that what I usually drink but it was a necessary change since I have been drinking so much coffee more recently. These pods are commercially compostable & I think the coffee tastes a bit richer from the EcoPod – could be just my imagination but I enjoy them.

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When I am not drinking coffee, I am drinking delicious cups of David’s Tea & my most recent favorite is the Sweet Potato Pie blend. Pumpkin Chai had been my front runner but when I got a taste of this sweet, nutty goodness it was over. I mean, the chai is still very good but this literally tastes like I am drinking a pie – much more enjoyable than it sounds.

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Yet another Target find, they get ya’ with those damn endcaps – these Off the Eaten Path crisps are delicious. I am not a snack person most of the time, my snack of choice is typically popcorn but with my new fillings I am being very cautious so that I never have to go back πŸ˜‰ These are very low calorie & provide just enough salty, crunchiness to satisfy my savory snack cravings. I have not dipped them in anything yet but I think they would probably be delicious with most anything.

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Those are a few of the things that have been keeping my happy at home – I will save all of my Christmas goodies for Blogmas but they have definitely been brightening my day too. What have you been enjoying lately, let me know in the comments!

It’s Friday the 13th✨

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And we’re going back into lockdown – dun, dun, dun. Not full lockdown but it definitely feels like we are going back to pre-summer COVID regulations. We are battening down the hatches at work which has me stressed out. We are still following most of the guidelines that were put in place during the stay at home order so it won’t be a big change & hopefully it is enough to see us through the flu season. I’m not holding my breath because I feel that the situation is going to get a lot worse before it gets better.

Aside from the day to day general feeling of dread & melancholy, I’ve never given much thought to Friday the 13th. My mother on the other hand was very superstitious about the date. She wouldn’t make any appointments & sometimes even pulled us out of school if she had a feeling. What she was feeling, I never knew but good thing my teachers were pretty good humored about it her eccentricities. I honestly cannot recall anything happening that I could chalk up the this dreaded day but now watch, something happens πŸ˜€ Instead of manifesting myself a flat tire or other calamity, I’m sharing 13 things I am particularly thankful for this Friday the 13th.

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I think that this is something to feel especially good about right now, aside from the trip to the dentist – I have been feeling pretty good lately.

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Seeing so many of my neighbors move out in one go really made me sad, I’m still sad about it. The parking lot being half full, seeing fewer families out & about, how strangely quiet the building has become – it’s been wearing on me. I am one of the lucky ones though that has still been able to work & keep my home through all of this & it feels like a tremendous blessing.

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The complete absence of a social life these past few months has meant a whole lot more attention for my cats & I’m loving it – I suspect they aren’t as much πŸ˜› They are endless entertainment as well as endless mess makers so I always have something to keep me busy. No, they are lovely companions.

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Now, it is certainly possible that all of this new snow will be melted by Monday but new snow always cheers me up. I love how it makes everything look fresh & new, also it makes me feel less nutty having all my holiday dΓ©cor up when there is snow on the ground. I also enjoy snowshoeing & snowboarding, the season is fast approaching!

Almond Delight Regular

I think that this is the 7th week that I have been using this service & it’s awesome. It’s really cut down on my trips to the store & when I do go, it is just for essentials like coffee, oil & other bits. It’s perfect for a small household because nothing goes to waste. Back when we were supposed to be shopping for two weeks, I was constantly throwing out food or eating the same thing for days. Hello Fresh is perfect because I get two sittings in one meal, I usually make one for dinner & have the leftovers for the next day’s lunch. I do the plant based box & use substitutes when needed, it works really well.

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Who are often underpaid & overworked – you are the real stars of this show. I like to think that I am a pretty independent person but back when this all started & I was depending on essential workers to pick my groceries or deliver necessities to me – I was often hit with overwhelming gratitude for these folks & I can’t thank them enough.

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I’m a big cartoon watcher but I’ve really upped my cartoon watching recently. Currently I have been watching Scooby Doo, The Jetsons, A Charlie Brown Christmas πŸ˜€ There is just something cozy about settling down for some cartoon binge watching.

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I’ve said it numerous times & I am tremendously thankful to have my job. It’s just baffling to me that friends of mine who only just got back to work are now being put out of work again. I suspect that there will be no further relief until 2021 & to that I say – stop paying all of the people in office until they make something happen.

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Daylight savings time is still kicking my ass & I feel that coffee is the only thing sustaining me at the moment. Coffee & Jesus.

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I’m actually a bit hesitant to take my upcoming vacation, I haven’t taken any time off this year aside from a long weekend. Reason being that I get nervous about being going & then my employer realizing they don’t need me – no, but it does seem a bit risky given everything that is going on. I am taking an entire week but technically we are closed Thursday & Friday for Thanksgiving anyway. That being said, I am looking forward to the extra days off – I’m not doing anything but that’s the point I guess.

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I am not one to wish time away but I am irrationally excited for 2020 to see itself out. Will everything be sunshine & rainbows on January 1? No, we are a long way away from any rainbows but it will feel good to close the book on this long slog of a year.

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Even though we probably won’t be seeing one another any time in the near future, it’s nice to know that they are there. I can’t with the Zoom calls or drive by celebrations anymore, listen, I know what you look like – just text me.

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I work tonight…& tomorrow…& the next day but Friday always tends to feel celebratory πŸ™‚

What are you thankful for right now? Let me know if you have any Friday the 13th feelings, are you superstitious. I hope you’re well, thanks for stopping by ✨

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow✨

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Until tomorrow when I have to drive into work then it can stop snowing. I honestly think that we only have about 2 inches of actual snow & 1/4 inch of ice. I don’t love this in between weather where it’s warm enough to rain then the temperature drops & we get a nice layer of ice. Thank you, climate change.

In all seriousness, I had a lovely day off & appreciate all of the veterans who’ve sacrificed so much for my freedom. Veterans in America tend to be a forgotten population. Homelessness, lack of access to quality healthcare & mental health resources are just a few of the obstacles service men & women face. It’s unfortunate that they are forgotten by society too often. They deserve our respect & gratitude today & everyday β€οΈπŸ€πŸ’™

I went to the dentist yesterday, it was terrible. I don’t generally have issues with the dentist but this time was rough. I went in for a cleaning but an old filling was leaking so he wanted to drill it out & replace it, sounded great. It was one of those old silver fillings & I’ve been wanting to have it replaced anyway. I’ve not had a filling in awhile & forgot about the numbing process, why are those needles so big?! Vaccination needles go into much larger body parts & are half the size. I don’t even have a problem with needles but those giant, stainless steel dentist needles creep me out. So, she’s going in with that needle & I swear I could feel it going directly into the nerve & then I couldn’t blink my eye which made me freak out a little. I was all hopped up on nitrous at this point & had a moment where I felt like saying something but couldn’t tell if the needle was still in my mouth or not & didn’t want to move then cause a real problem. So I just laid there internally screaming. Unfortunately, my childhood dentist removed much more tooth than my dentist could tell on the surface & it took forever for him to fill it completely. Good thing my entire face stayed numb for at least the next 6 hours. I actually started to worry, I’ve never experienced such intense numbness before. The filling looks beautiful though, couldn’t be happier. I’m never going back πŸ˜› At one point while I was internally screaming, I started to wonder if I was actually trying to scream but couldn’t or was I screaming & they just weren’t saying anything? I watch too many horror movies.

Today, I treated myself to about a pound of mashed potatoes & ran some errands. Let me know what you’re up to, any snow in your neck of the woods? Don’t forget to thank a vet, have a beautiful night πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡Έ

Blogtober Day 18: Cold Weather Body Care

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The seasons have changed, fall might be over already. We had a very crisp high of 32 degrees today & are looking at 4-inches of snow this Tuesday. I know that Halloween is a toss up on whether or not we’re still having mild weather or a foot of snow on the ground but I’m not sure I’m ready! Good thing I work from home on Tuesdays because I cannot with these city slickers driving on bad roads. The air has been dry for awhile now which is torture for my already dry, eczema prone skin & I’ve already switched my body care routine. I’m trying some new things this year that are more luxurious than my usual Cerave & am really pleased with the results so far!

Shea Moisture is an awesome brand and has been for awhile. They were some of the first to offer products specifically for curly, coily, kinky natural hair. All of their ingredients are ethically sourced, fair trade & they are cruelty free. Over the years, they’ve expanded to body & skin care – I have been using their coconut oil line & am obsessed. Here’s my routine for soft, clear skin!

Cleanse & Exfoliate: to start, I’ve been using the Daily Hydration Body Wash that is absolutely delicious. It’s sudsy, smells amazing & cleans my skin without making it feel dry or tight. I haven’t had any issues with breakouts or skin flare ups since switching which is rare for my overly sensitive skin. It leaves my skin sweetly scented & nourished.

Next, as unpleasant as exfoliating dry skin sounds, I find that regularly sloughing off the dead skin really improves the overall appearance of my skin. The Daily Hydration Creme Sugar Scrub is just the right amount of grittiness & since it’s sugar, it just dissolves as you work it in. It’s a very hydrating body scrub, I use it all over & it makes my skin sparkle.

Moisturize: I have severely dry skin, I use an oil on particularly dry areas & then seal it in with an occlusive moisturizer. Shea Moisture offers a few lightweight, nourishing body oils but of course I went for the coconut. I have to mention that the coconut line smells like real coconut, very nutty & not that synthetic coconut that some might expect. Everything smells great but it might be a bit different than what some might be anticipating. Generally, a palm full is plenty for the areas I need extra moisture. I then work the Daily Hydration Body Lotion in all over my body. This stuff is thick, I don’t love the packaging & think it would work better in a tub. I put the bottle on my shower floor so the hot water can soften it up then it’s a bit easier to dispense. It doesn’t take terribly long to work in given the thick consistency & doesn’t feel greasy. This lotion keeps my skin comfortably hydrated all day & then some.

Shea Moisture can be purchased at ULTA, Target & on their website! They’re products are affordable & high quality. I cannot recommend them enough if you’re looking for something new.

Let me know what you’re go-to winter skin picks are. Have you tried anything from Shea Moisture? Thanks for stopping by πŸ§‘πŸ–€

At Summer’s End

Life & Style

Last weekend we were in the throes of a sticky, stagnant, intense mid-west heat wave. You could have not convinced me that this week we would be seeing lows in the 50’s. Summer is tricky like that, when you are in the middle of it, there is no end in sight but then all at once, the wind shifts and it’s over. I’ve never been a summer person, not having a great home life meant spending a lot more time in a chaotic atmosphere. Fall was always a fresh new beginning for me, an opportunity to throw myself back into sports and academics and finding peace away from home. As an adult, I find things to appreciate about summer but I am definitely more in my element in the fall and winter – thus my attempt to jump back into blogging. My last post was some time in May, here is what’s been happening since then…

Has been absolutely bananas, and yes I am tremendously thankful that I still have a job. I work in Parks & Recreation, we had a lot of programs cancelled but the parks, trails and lakes have never been busier. I was also assisting another department for the majority of the summer and felt like I never had a breather. Working in the public sector, you get to hear everyone’s opinion on how the government mandates are pissing people off. People are either shocked that there are restrictions or shocked that there aren’t more – you can’t win. Thankfully, we are back in the office fifty percent of the time and it feels more normal. I don’t know what the cooler weather will bring but we are adapting every day.

Cup of tea at the office…

I have been so homesick lately that I could cry & often do. I want to move back to Colorado now more than ever but can’t make that happen without finding a job there first. Since I am stuck in Minnesota for now, I decided to make my place feel a little homier. I live in an apartment so nothing crazy – finally purchased a new couch! It only took me ten years and a sale to do it. It’s pink velvet, long enough to lay stretched out on with room to spare. I also discovered Casaluna bedding from Target which is absolutely to die for and invested in some funky wall art. My apartment feels delightfully eclectic & I’m really into it. I won’t talk in length about all of the factors that are making me want to leave Minnesota but the destruction of Minneapolis is definitely one of them. I used to live right near the 3rd Precinct and seeing the colorful, vibrant, diverse community reduced to rubble is heartbreaking and makes me angry.

Was a complete and total failure! No sooner had I arranged everything on my patio, we found out that numerous improvements to the outside of the building were being made this summer. We had a new roof put on, new siding, the patios were all power washed, reslatted and repainted. I moved my garden inside but since I only have windows on the one side of my apartment, most everything died within a couple of weeks & everything smelled like manure. The building looks great and now that everything is done, the patio will be used a lot this fall but what a bummer! Good thing I can still visit the farmers markets for my fresh veggie fix.

Pluto enjoying the new bedding…

After almost 6 months of not being on my MS medication due to COVID, some of my every day activities like driving and walking have gotten a bit tricky. My MS has the most impact to balance and fine motor skills & it’s certainly been disappointing to see things deteriorate. I will be resuming my treatment in the next few weeks because at this point, COVID is the lesser threat. I’m excited to get back into it since I was seeing such good results this past winter with the more severe symptoms. I hope that everyone has been able to stay healthy! If there’s been any silver lining to being at home more, I finally feel like I caught up on sleep πŸ˜› Did anyone else find it hard to sleep at the start of all of this? I don’t think I got to bed before 2 AM since early June so am glad to have found a normal sleep pattern.

I hope that you are happy & healthy & just doing the best that you can wherever you are. I am excited to get back into blogging and posting lots of fall content. This year being almost at an end is hard to believe but I am hopeful for the future. Let me know what you’ve been up to and how this summer has been treating you πŸ–€

Trash Talk & Some Products I’m Getting Rid Of

Clean Beauty, Random

Another beautiful spring day, we’ve really been treated to fantastic weather lately. I’ve been enjoying the deck a lot, getting my urban garden off the ground – update to come. I don’t know if nature is just thriving with humans being in lockdown but has anyone else noticed some monster bees where they are? I appreciate the bees but I’m also allergic to them & they just seem massive this year. I’m excited that they are interested in my plants though, I hope this means that my garden will be a success. I’m still cleaning, organizing & reorganizing because what else is there to do?! I’ve got just a handful of empties & a few things I’m tossing because I don’t like them.

Sol de Janeiro Bum Bum Cream – There’s still a good blob to use up but almost there. I hate that I love this stuff but there are few creams this rich that don’t feel greasy. It smells like summer but in a refined, sultry way. I’m not repurchasing as it does seem overpriced & I have a LUSH body cream that I need to use up.

Pyunkang Yul Acne Patches – these were pretty good, I like how thin they were. Not terribly expensive & very effective at helping treat red spots.

CeraVe Eye Repair Cream – I like this stuff a lot & almost always have some on hand. It’s a simple cream that just hydrates but I think that ensuring the undereye area is properly hydrated can help with the appearance of fine lines and dark circles. It’s not very expensive but is decently effective.

Tula Eye Renewal Serum – I wasn’t crazy about this product. I like the consistency but I didn’t notice any change to the puffiness of my undereyes. I also think that it irritated my skin a bit. It’s overpriced at $52 for .5 ounces, especially as it did nothing for me.

Peach & Lily Glass Skin Refining Serum – I felt like there was a good reason that I never bought into the hype around this product. This is a deluxe sample & there’s nothing special about this serum. I’m about halfway done with it, I haven’t noticed any changes in my skin texture. It feels nice but so does plain hyaluronic acid.

Charlotte Tilbury Magic Foundation – I’ve fallen out of love with this brand almost completely. I’ve used a lot of her products & while they’re good, I just don’t think that they’re magic or worth the price tag. I think you need to have really good skin & attractive features already to use her products successfully. Which makes sense as she is a celebrity makeup artist. This foundation is just a caky, clumpy, pore accentuating mess. I do enjoy the Magic Cream but the makeup just isn’t for me.

Good Molecules Priming Moisturizer – Actually a nice, lightweight moisturizer that does prep the skin for makeup but it broke me out! It’s almost 3/4 full & I’d love to pass it on but think those days are over in light of Corona.

Some keepers, some duds but they all can’t be winners. I hope you’re having a beautiful day & just doing the best you can πŸ’›